A letter from Jan 04, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Today, while going through my drive to tidy up and create some space for my things, I unexpectedly stumbled upon a folder containing pictures of us. It brought back memories. Ah, 2019, those were the days of our genuine love. I miss you, or rather, I miss the version of you from back then, not who you are now. It got me thinking, what if I had endured those challenges we faced? Would we still be together? Those were the years, 7th to 10th grade, when love was early but undeniably pure and sincere. As I gazed at our pictures, all that flooded my mind were the beautiful moments. Sneaking in practices just to share ice cream dates with you, cherishing those precious 25 minutes of conversation – I truly admired your patience. I regret not being able to reciprocate that. I'm sorry I gave up. I was just so tired. Our lives took different paths. Me in my first year of college and you being in your second. . Despite the changes, I genuinely wish you the best in life, hoping you achieve the dreams we once shared about. Since we parted ways, I've struggled to develop feelings for other guys. There was someone in grade 12 whom I liked, but it didn't work out. Despite the pain of our separation, the love you gave me remains my standard. No one in the past four years has come close to that. We really cut off all connections. I removed you from my private Instagram, and you unfollowed me on Instagram and Facebook. I understand and respect our decision to set boundaries. I hope you're keeping the promises you made to me with your partner. She deserves all the love you can give. I don't know why I feel like this. It's not that I haven't moved on, but I miss the feeling of being loved and cared for. As I pen down these thoughts, I can't help but hope that when I revisit these words in the future, there will be someone by my side showering me with even more love than you ever did. It's not about comparison; it's about knowing that I deserve a love that goes beyond what I've experienced. Here's to hoping for a future filled with boundless love and happiness. Wistfully, Deng