hey baby

Dear FutureMe, you're okay. you really are okay. after it all you've made it through. it's okay. cry if you need to. work hard at what you do. you love it. even if you hate it, you still love it. i know we will. so we start college this upcoming year, and it's very scary for us. whether we lived it or not, childhood is over. there's to do now, it can't be changed. work hard, love much, and laugh to hard you cry and stomach hurts to you almost puke. and then start laughing all over again. dad isn't that bad. but you don't have to love him. just be opkay with him. which, i think we are. don't be him, though. never touch a drop of alcohol. remember all the tiems you cried and promised yourself that? don't break it. you deserve better. and you're already so much like him. ie-temper. buy yourself something pretty. go out to a shop and but yourself a piece of jewelry. a necklace, maybe? whatever. you deserve it. you need pretty things. you ARE pretty. have you been saving your money up? i don't know if i need to tell you, but the thought of not having money ties my stomach up in knots. make sure your bank account is good. have a debit card. chop the credit cards. you should have debit, petco, petsmart, and other little store cards. but no credit cards. at 18 i fear being in debt. how are you faring at 25? by now you should be in your own place. do you remeber the plan? 18-19: 1st year of college, you live at home 19-20: 2nd year of college, you live at at home 20-21: 3rd year of college, you live at home 21-22: 1st year in the workforce, you live at home 22-23: 2nd year in the workforce, you get your own place 23-24: 3rd year in the workforce, you get a better place. lol. or make the other place your own 24-25: you get this e-mail. do you still want to live in lansdowne, where you grew up? how are the cats? the turtles? do we have a dog? get one before 30. wow it's weird to think of us being so close to 30. but still, i order you to get a dog. mmm. maybe at age 27. yes. yes that works. i'm sending us an e-mail right after this. feel free to send one to our 27 year-old self as well. it'll be cool. plus we deserve to get yelled at twice. have you gotten kissed yet? still gay? still vegan? i love you. i know that it sounds odd, but i really really do. i lvoe me. and i hope that i'll love you. i hope we've grown, and progressed. and learned how to live on our own. do you have lots of funky cool locks on the door? did you keep your creativity? did you get the stuff from the peta catalog? does music still course through veins everytime yoyu hear it? learn the drums learn the piano. the red hot chili pepper, baby! californication just came on. remember all those times dancing around your room? trying to feel sexy? trying to feel pretty? pretending you were famous? had friends? were awesome? well guess what? you are awesome. cry. cry for the years lost. but don't cry so much that you lose the future years. I LOVE YOU! , caitlyn