A letter from Dec 27, 2023

2023.June.12 Happy birthday Nashrah! I love you. I love you Nashrah. Thank you for always being here for me. I hope you look at this in the future and see how positive you were, and continue to be. Don’t cry - wait girl I swear if you’re crying I’m gonna smack you. Wait I’m crying now. Ah Nashrah we are both hopeless. Well, no matter what you accomplish, whether it’s small, or big, I hope you never lose sight of what is most important to you. Allah. He is most important in this Dunya. Well of course you are important and so is your family, but Allah is #1. Since you’re older… I DESERVE QUESTIONS! How big is Aahil now? JUST THE THOUGHT OF HIM BEING OLDER MAKES ME WANNA CRY. Is he still naughty? Does he still pull your hair when he’s mad? OMG DID HE START PRESCHOOL? KINDERGARTEN? GRADE 1??😭 hehe does he pull all the ladies?😏 Jk😝 I hope he grows up to be a gentleman. I know he will Inshallah. Give him a big kiss and cherish every moment. What is Sheza up to? Does she still want to be an actress? Did she get taller than you? Did she finish the Quran? I hope she’s closer to Allah. Does she still watch anime with you hehe? I hope junior high was amazing for her, or if she’s still in it then I hope she’s having fun. I bet she’s coming home everyday talking about a new crush 🙄 crushes are okay! As long as you know your limit! Don’t be hard on her, and try to be there for her no matter what. School life is hard, and it’s difficult not being influenced by others, but I know as long as she has you, inshallah she will come over all her trials! She can be annoying but you love her. Cherish your time with her as well. Aww Sheza 🥺 NOW MONKEYS TURN! Izaan is a hard topic for us isn’t he? We love him, but at times we hate him. I wonder what he’s doing in life at the time you’re reading this. I hope he has accomplished a lot inshallah. How is he enjoying university? I hope he made good friends. Has he met someone yet hehe? Well even if he hasn’t, I hope he is still close to Allah. Does he still get mad? I hope not. I hope he learned to control his anger. Are you guys still close? I know he can be hard to deal with, but cherish your time with him. Mama’s turn!! First of all, how is mama’s health? Did you give her your kidney? If you say no, I know you had your reasons because I know how badly you wanted to give her your kidney the moment you turned 18. I really hope you found a way to make it work! Does she still yell at you and make you cry for no reason? Ah I hope not. Did she start going back to work? I hope she’s doing what she loves. Cherish your time with her. I know she can be so hard on us sometimes, but try your hardest to be positive no matter what. Time flies fast, and that time will come, so be positive and try to cherish every moment with her. PAPAS TURN! How is his business going!! I hope it’s going well enough that mama was able to quit her job for good and help papa put at the shop. I hope papa is happy with how he is living. I hope he got closer to Allah, and prays everyday. I hope he found someone to help him at the shop. I hope and pray that he started taking care of himself. Cherish your time with him. Time flies so fast. One day that will come, so before it does, cherish your last second with him. NOW TIME FOR THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE…. YOUU!! I have so much to ask you. First of all, how are you? Mentally, physically, emotionally… are you happy? That’s the most important thing. Cue the tears. Jk but I know you’re crying right now :( no cry please♥️ Bro I want you to be happy. I know it’s hard to put yourself first, but you have to if you want to be there for the people you love. Speaking of love, have you found the one yet? Maybe your not looking for anything, and maybe you are, and MAYBE HEHE you found him 😏 Either way, I hope you’re happy. DID YOU GET INTO A MED SCHOOL? When you are reading this don’t get sad. Maybe you found out that med school wasn’t it for you, or maybe things didn’t work out. No matter what, I hope you are happy with what you are doing. I know people around you are hard on you all the time so I don’t want to be hard on you as well. Becoming a doctor has been a dream for us ever since I can remember, but it’s okay. Sometimes, things don’t work out the way we want them to. I hope you’re doing something you love. (Delete this part if you didn’t get in bc I know your gonna get sad. I know you’re going to want to read it, but done. THIS IS AN ORDER! No need to remind yourself of the past okay? What’s does is done. A clock doesn’t go backwards now does it?) BUT IF YOU DID THEN CONGRATULATIONS!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! THANK YOU FOR RESPECTING ALL OF OUR WISHES AND GOALS!! (By all of us I mean all the Nashrah’s who have been saying they wanna be a doctor since they were younger) no offence but I can’t even imagine you being in med school. It’s sad that I can’t imagine it, I know, but wow. Everyone around us put us down all the time. Laughing at us, mocking us, saying terrible things, but you proved them wrong. I love you man. I know you worked hard. I don’t have a lot to say sorry. Due to the lack of support and motivation from the people around us, it’s hard for me to even imagine a future like that. But just know, I am extremely proud. You have always wanted to help people. Money has never been the main goal for you. You have such a kind heart, and you truly deserve to be a doctor. I hope you’re in medical school doing your best. Muhammad told us getting into med school isn’t the hard part, staying in med school is. I know you worked hard to get in, so continue working hard. You can do this, I know you can. NOW TIME FOR ANIME!!! Some can say it’s sad, but anime is a big distraction for us. Anime is an escape for us. As of right now, you have watched 85 ANIMES! Though you didn’t finish the last episode of some Animes… BUT STILL!! I hope you still watch anime, and I hope your list is much bigger! You love anime, so you better not try to act “cool” and stop watching it for some reason. Since we are never allowed to go outside, we live our life through anime characters… sounds pretty sad huh? BUT ITS NOT!! PAST YOU IS POSITIVE AND YOU BETTER BE TOO! One day, I know my daughter/son will live the life I wanted to. I can spend hours, days, weeks, EVEN YEARS thinking about negative things and ruining my life by doing that, but it takes one second to be positive. You know how? Smile and thank Allah. That’s all you need to do. Um look at me switching topics every second. OOPS SORRY. Recently you watched an anime called “Blue spring ride” (pretty cute anime huh? Did they release a second season?) and while watching, we started crying. Sad + happy tears. The friends in the anime went to a fireworks festival. Seeing how happy they were, made you cry. This could be me is what I was thinking. But I swear to Allah, we started thinking about our kids. Inshallah they will do the things we couldn’t do. Obviously halal things. But this is one of the examples of how positive you used to be, so keep this up, for both of us. Wow, talking about anime to talking about our kids who aren’t even born. Ah the affect of anime. Isn’t it crazy? As I type the words, the Nashrah I was a second, minute, day, year ago, is nothing but words. Sorry so random. I was reading back and thinking I was talking to myself, and I am. Even though I just wrote it, but it’s so trippy hehe. Well I’m done. I really hope you took time out of your day and read this. Wait why am I talking to you like you’re not me. Girl I swear to BEEP you better have read this. If you don’t then your fake 😑 BUT I KNOW U WILL BC I KNOW U because ur literally me… ANYWAYS I hope you get everything you pray for and more. I hope you always have good intentions. I hope you never stop following the path that leads you to the final destination. Jannah. I love you Nashrah. Be grateful for everything. You being alive is the evidence that Allah knows you can do better. Happy birthday! Another year, another chance