A letter from Dec 17, 2023

Dear FutureMe, God my head is full of emotions, when you get this, you have graduated and have turned 17!! How was school? The HSC? Did anymore friends leave? (Hope not), how is Koda? (My baby all healthy?), how’s the family. Everything with Jas good? Is dad okay? How is Uma? She still around?. Did the last Christmas go okay? Do you still like him? (Blonde). Are you still friends with Her? (God I think about her all day) did she ever reply to your text? Was it good? (I know she’s straight but it was worth a shot, right?), did we lose weight? (Sore spot I know). Are you happy? (I’m not right now). Currently writing this while listening to “more than friends”, **** it’s pathetic really. It’s weird writing this not formally but instead pouring whatever comes out of my head and my heart including all the emotions. Currently have: 96 books. God my mind goes back to her. All the other times with a crush like this, I valued the friendship over the possible relationship but this, god I craved for the relationship ******* knowing it wouldn’t happen, and I have possibly ****** a two year friendship with the best woman I could have. God, **** we joked about a possible future because we were wife’s in food technology, hell even joking around I still accepted anything she wanted. She wants to live on the coast, I don’t really want to but for her, god I would die for her, ****, **** for her, I would breathe for her, to live for her. God anything everything she wants. You might be reading this thinking god I was pathetic but so what? Yea the outcome could be a I lost a really good friend knowing **** well I should have kept my ******* mouth shut but I didn’t. Sorry future me. I hope you fix your ****** up mind and god, the letter from French, read it and answer it even two months after handing it in I can’t believe have many things have changed in possible answers and outcomes. Hold your head high and keep this email and that letter as a reminder that you ******* value your friendships and even with a mistake you can grow. Love from sun, 17 December 2023