A letter from Dec 08, 2023

Dear FutureMe, i hope you are better now. i hope your GPA is good and you're making your parents proud (even though you know you always are just by doing your best and you BETTER be doing your best. we did not come this far just to make it this far. i came this far and i am going to MAKE IT and i am going to be GREAT. and i hope you make it big and make him mad by doing what he didn't think you could do. he thinks you're stupid and vulnerable and easy so SHOW HIM that you're not show him who you really are. i love you. make me proud please. and i hope you've given a speech and shouted out everyone, because you really are so lucky to have them all. especially tzipora u better appreciate tf outta that girl cuz she truly is the best. hope u got over ur trust issues and if ur in a relationship it better be a healthy one and he better love tf outta u and show it the right way. don't settle for less plz. making a mistake once is fine, i was naive and vulnerable at the moment, but im strong now and im strong as a person and im gonna make it through this and come out stronger and im surrounded by love. so so so much love. and it fills my heart and its soothing and its lovely and its wonderful and im blessed. so i won't make the same mistake ever again because i deserve better. and i am gonna do SOMETHING to help women in abusive relationships/freshly out of (once i am out of the freshly out of phase cuz i can tell i am still not but i am going to try to be strong and be good and make my people proud even though i'm sure he'll make it hard for me) cuz i really do understand now and my whole perspective has shifted and i want more people to learn about it and be aware without having to go through it because really no one deserves it. and i have to stop justifying his behavior and thinking that maybe i do deserve it because NO ONE DOES. i wouldn't accept it if it was anyone else even ppl that i like significantly less than i like myself so why tf am i accepting it?? he's not the only man there r others and im srry im gonna hurt his feelings but he hurt mine. this was stream of consciousness (virginia woolf style ;( so i hope future me enjoys. think im gonna also do it for my 21st birthday cuz i rlly have no idea what i wrote in my last one of these so it'll be a lil double surprise! i cant wait. im gonna be so much better then. i love you future me, (this originally said future "your name" but you decided to post it anonymously cuz maybe someone could relate? if u read this...love yourself. respect yourself. you deserve it.) love yourself you're great and it's why you're surrounded by love.