A letter from Dec 05, 2023

Dear Future kayla, Bye you’re a ******* ******* All you do is treat me like **** like the entire time that I was in summer school I wanted to **** myself so many times the only reason I didn’t was because I thought you my family would think you did something wrong and you don’t you don’t give a **** about me you only want to hang out of make you feel better when I started wearing arm warmers and legwarmes it was because I was cutting myself and you didn’t even care when I told you I wanted to **** myself you didnt give a **** I bet you didn’t even notice because to you I don’t even exist that letter that I wote that you twisted to be about Natalia was about you your a very ****** friend Kayla and I can’t even say anything because you won’t care if I said something like stop treating me like that or were not friends anymore you wouldn littrally unfriend me that second like I know some times I can act like a ***** or something I know I ******* hate it I know im clingy but have you ever realised you guys might me my only friends? I literally spend my free time scrolling on pintrest while you guys go out and I. Know you cant go out but even when you were I was never part I literally had to beg you to do the physics project because I had nobody I cant ask you for help for littrally anything because you’ll ignore me or scream aT me or something and I can’t even say something because if I do you’ll start saying im a liar because you can say anything but if I open my mouth to say anything im fake or something and I know that im babyish and I should care about this stuff but I do I never got to do anything when I was little and I still am why can’t I do all these stuff why can’t I pay Roblox when the age is literally 12+? Why can’t I have a dress up party because Ihve never had one before why can’t I know I get attached easily because you guys are the only people I have I literally told my mom that I wanted to **** myself multiple times and she slapped me saying I was going to hell my dad puts all this pressure on me since im the oldest and he wants me to follow their. Footsteps the only time you’ve checked up on me was when I gave you the letter and yes I wanted to ******* **** myself I have literally tried somany times but I stop do you know why Because you guys might get said I said might because I don’t even think you’ll care do you know why idont take school seriously because I want to die. On my q6th birthday ******* ******* myself soil you are reading this and im already dead **** you Kayla and if im not then treat me better or never see me again and if were not friends **** you and if im alive and still your friend im sorry for writhing this letter you really annoyed me **** you Kayla 13 year old sariah