A letter from Nov 15, 2023

Dear FutureMe, thoughts are hard to put in words but i know you understand what i feel. i feel like there is so much to do yet not enough time but sometimes it feels like time eats me up cus there is too much, i want to do so many things yet i feel like i can't like there is a force stopping me. Sometimes i feel like i have the potential to be something more than extraordinary, i feel like i can be someone with meaning in this world, i can achieve something big but i dont know whats stopping me. i feel like i am different from other people but not in a bad way, i feel like i see things others don't. My brain may be an enemy sometimes but it can also fascinate me the way it works, i look at things and i see more than that, i see deep things. i think i can do something big, dont know what, to be really explicit to you, but i will, and you will know. It's this feeling that i have inside that there is something more inside me that i need to explore, i dont want to limit myself, i want to know, to understand, to feel things. I dont want to be ordinary and i feel like it wont be like this it isnt the easiest thing to live with my thoughts, but i will keep living despite it, i will be brave, i will try and try i can't let anxiety win maybe thats the downside of feeling different, you feel emotions different too. anxiety isnt bigger than me, i am a wild poppy that grows and blooms even in the desert, even in the storm despite everything i will still have me and even tho sometimes it feel like this aint enough, it is. you are more than extraordinary