A letter from Nov 14, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I'm so sorry for the late reply, reading your letter from 5 years ago was a lot to take in and its taken nearly 2 months to get back to you. Anyways, I trust this letter finds you in a moment of reflection, still navigating the intricate dance of life. If you're still embracing your name or adopting Ali in your professional circles, it's a testament to your adaptability. At 30, you're a living testament to resilience and strength, sculpted by the challenges faced and conquered. The journey began at 25 when you ventured into weightlifting, the 5x5 strength exercise becoming a metaphor for the fortitude that would characterize your years to come. Reflecting on the past, I can't help but acknowledge the trying period of 2021- living in chaos, dysfunction-borderline abusive situation, dissociation, Jobless and adrift, the weight of financial uncertainty bore down on you. These struggles, however, were not your defeat; they were the crucible in which your true strength emerged. At 22, confidence exuded from every pore, and a zest for life was your compass. Yet, life's challenges, including racism, homophobia, and the echoes of childhood trauma, took their toll. The transition from university to the professional world exposed you to the harsh realities. Losing your driving license, grappling with health scares, your brother's sectioning, the loss of your father, the pandemic upheaval, and enduring a dysfunctional household—all are etched in your story. They are not wounds but badges of honor, marking your triumphs. Your decision to storm out of therapy, fueled by anger and a feeling of misunderstanding, speaks to your determination not to let circumstances dictate your narrative. Now, in a world grappling with a cost-of-living crisis, you're contemplating a shift. The once-inspiring creative world has shifted, and project management beckons—a field aligning with your evolving aspirations. But there's more to the canvas. In the midst of these challenges, you've faced the loneliness that comes with having no friends to confide in. A significant shift occurred as you turned to God. Despite no longer identifying as a Muslim due to religious trauma, you found solace in God once again. Your song, "Dreams," echoes this newfound connection, expressing a yearning for a higher power and the peace it brings. Could it be Jesus? The answer remains elusive, but you're certain of a guiding force. "In my dreams I see god in me, my day went by a breeze, I felt loved for once, I now know peace. Lord stay with me." Amidst the loss of friends, you've rediscovered connections with people from your past people you haven't seen in a decade. It's a testament to the ebb and flow of relationships. In the symphony of your aspirations, there's a desire for recognition, acknowledged for your accomplishments. The dream job you seek is not just for financial stability but for the fulfillment of your potential. Multiple streams of income, passive income, and the establishment of businesses are on your horizon. You crave not just success but a wealth of opportunities that transcend the conventional. Traveling the world is not just a wish; it's a goal etched in your passport. Exploring cultures, experiencing the diversity of our planet, and expanding your horizons is a key part of your vision. In this pursuit of a multifaceted life, you aspire to have a life coach—a guide to navigate the intricacies of your goals and dreams. Someone to provide insights, strategies, and support as you chart your course through the complex tapestry of your ambitions. With unwavering resilience.