A letter from Nov 10, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I want to write a letter to my mom. All the things I think, but I can't say right now. First off, I love you so much. I love you so so so so much mom. I'm already crying. No words will ever be able to express how thankful, grateful, and amazed I am by having you as my mom. I don't think I could ever pull it off as well as you did. I had a perfect upbringing. I couldn't have asked for anything better/more. You gave and sacrificed so much for all of us. Growing into adulthood as a woman has changed my perspective so much. I have so much respect for you. I love spending time with you and I feel honored that we get to know each other as people in such a special way. There is no bond that can come close to a mother's bond with her daughter. Maybe if I was a guy I'd feel this passionate about dad and his part in my life, having kids, raising them, ..., but a part of me tells me that even if I did feel that way, it wouldn't have the same magnitude. It comes from being a woman. How we are seen, treated, how we unknowingly limit ourselves because of what is expected of us. I'm sure there have been plenty of sacrifices that dad has made for our family, but it's just not the same. Thank you. Thank you for everything. Maybe I'll feel more confident in my abilities and capacity when I'm older, but I have no idea how you raised us so well while working. The thought of that makes me so anxious. It seems like an impossible task, but you did it. I'm excited about all the good times that we'll have together as I get older. The only positive thing I can think of about leaving my teenage years is that it'll be good for our relationship. Boy did those last few years put us through the wringer. I feel like things are settling and I'm able to see you more clearly. I love you mom and I'll see you soon.