A letter from Nov 10, 2023

Dear Andrea, I am 18 right now and writing to you wherever you receive it. Hope you are much better, hope you are successful. I don't think I'm as mature as you will be so instead of advising you I'm just gonna pore my heart out. I want to experience love the kinna love that only happens once in a lifetime time a love which they call true love the one they show in movies a dramatic one where I am so happy that I cry and still, have him by my side. they say it is better to love and lose rather than to never have loved, I wonder why I always relate to dramas and movies where they love and lose, I try so hard to stop pursuing this idea but fail don't know if it is weird it obviously is that I find a sense of peace when I'm sad. To me being loved by a boy feels like a dream a dream that I wanna dream again and again yet fear it will end soon and I don't wanna let it go, I am aware of how imperfect I am and maybe the type of love i want is too much to ask but for me, it is my dream to fall in love and be in a relationship for quite a time and get married in a beautiful big church with a grand gown I wanna look and feel my best on that day I want GOD's SPIRIT to take over I want to walk down the aisle with my mum with 'here comes the bride ' in the background I want the most handsome man my to be husband to just look at me and feel so blessed to find me I want to see in his eyes that he hasn't seen any creature as beautiful as I will be both spiritually and physically I want us to be happily married and have kids of our own who we cherish we will raise them in faith and watch them grow up ik it was a lot but i just wanted to let you know I hope you are happy and have found your peace Love from Andrea from the past.