A letter from Nov 10, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I never felt that lost before. I live in a city that I hate, that only gives me is bad memories and trauma. I want to leave but I don't know where to go. I always thought by now I would have everything figure it out, a house, a job, what do I have instead? My baby died and I feel I am drawning ever since. I can't move on, I died with her that day. I always used to have a purpose, a goal to acchieve. Right now getting out of bed is the only goal of the day. I need a sign, a dream, an intuition, something. Where can I go? I always knew coming here would have be a mistake, now I am fighting with depression every day. I was happy in London, I just needed my partner with me, but he couldn't come because of brexit. Here we are now, withouth a job, without a house, counting on other's hospitality. I need my life back. I don't know what to do, I am lost. Dear me, please take care of you... I don't know what tomorrow is going to be, but somehow we will make it.