A letter from Nov 06, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I hope you're doing fine. Guess what ? I'm already in grade 10, graduating. I don't really have a dream job or anything, but I certainly desire for one thing— to be rich. I want to experience a comfortable life wherein money is not a problem anymore. By the time you receive this message, maybe you're already in your first year of college, which means you've chosen the course you want to pursue. I'm not sure yet which course that is, but I hope it's something you're truly passionate about. When I was 15, I wanted to become a doctor, a surgeon to be precise, but I also had to be practical.Your 15-year-old self is still having a hard time communicating her feelings, opinions, and thoughts. Mom always misunderstands her, thinking she's selfish and pathetic (even though she doesn't say it). Mom always asks for her opinions and thoughts about family problems. Every time our family has conflicts, Mom always tells her everything, and as a girl, she barely knows anything. So most of the time, she remains silent and Mom gets mad, thinking that she doesn't care about her family. She's still immature, so by the time she opens her mouth and shares her thoughts, Mom gets mad. I understand Mom; she expects her smart and achiever daughter to have suggestions and great thoughts or anything that can solve the problem. But I am still 15. I don't know anything. I'm only smart at school because I'm only following instructions and lessons. There's always lessons, I only have to sit and listen to the teacher. I feel sorry for mom, her daughter can't do good irl because there's no instructions. Your 15-year-old self is jealous of other people, of her friends, because they have lacking. They lack of worries and problems. Maybe the only time they have a hard time is when they're choosing their outfits, while I only have three pairs of pants and one shirt. Currently, I don't have any motivation to move forward. I don't know my purpose. I am having a hard time, everyone in the family. The root of the problem is money. I hope that by the time you receive this message, life is better, more radiant, and you no longer struggle to communicate your thoughts.