A letter from Nov 05, 2023

Dear FutureMe, It's funny. I'm in this position of having made such large decisions in my life. And I have such a solid understanding of who I am, what I must do, what are my goals. Those things are rock solid. And my understanding of the world. At this point, it's kind of hard to believe that I would ever change. Yet it should. Depends on what I find. That's another thing, right? I think I can do relationships much better. I know what to do, what is right, what is wrong, how to navigate it. Not perfect, but I feel quite comfortable in the way I deal with these things. In part, I want to ask you, my future self, what you've learnt. Have you learnt something? I sent a message, not too far in the future, I guess. Asking about some things that aren't that important. Well, the specific relationships I have at the moment. Today I talked to a friend I've made here. You know A*** right? Probably you will remember him, I don't know. Do you wonder how close my friend will stay? It'll be... It'll be different, right, in a way. I'm so much more organised than I used to be, so much harder working. I do so much more. I don't know if I do enough. It's curious, it's a curious situation I'm in. I couldn't have made a better decision about where I am, and where I'm going, and who I meet. To some extent it's curious how the world is. To some extent it's curious how the world is. The things I learnt about, I couldn't have applied so easily in the way I live. I'm practising new things, I'm learning something new about creating social groups and social movements, and making them work. It's curious, very curious. I meet interesting people, and I learn a lot of new things about the world, about the different philosophies. Then it all goes back to what decision I should take. It's interesting how, depending on the friends you make, it kind of changes your brain, it changes the rhythm of how you interact with people. You feel a certain amount of comfort in dealing with certain topics. Then there's the AI. I didn't even think this thing would exist, and it's changed such a large part of the way I do things. There's pockets, and there's my decisions, and there's goals. But it's still as important. Maybe it will become more important. Maybe... I was so surprised to find out that there were people, there was someone out there, who thought exactly, almost exactly the same way I do. I decided to actually put it into motion, and change the world in that direction. It was such great insights. I didn't even realize that I was thinking too much about myself. So what is it that I want to ask you? I want to ask you... If you're working hard, I just want to tell you to work harder. And right now I'm thinking, I should be more brave, I should do those things that I can't stop myself from saying and doing. Not being true to myself, being a coward, an absolute coward in the way I speak about things. I keep blocking myself, I keep freezing up, overthinking the tiniest detail. I'm not true to myself. The world has changed. And what decisions I should take is uncertain, and it's flexible. And it's interesting