A letter from Nov 01, 2023

Recent realisations I had: - I get angry when I'm hurt - I am hurt by more things than I´d like to admit - I am lonely, not alone but lonely - I am sad - I compare myself and my situation to others way to often - I have the worst fomo and I don't think it will ever go away - Sometimes I don't even know this man and wish I never did (my dad) - I crave love so much that I´m willing to lose myself for someone who does not even care a little about me - I feel bad and selfish for choosing myself - He has hurt me more than I´d like to admit and no one knows and I feel silly for it - I don't know why but I don't like myself most of the time - I feel silly when I'm being me - I feel like I am running out of time ...