A letter from Nov 01, 2023

dear future sarahhhh, hello! so as of writing this, im currently 16. And once you opened this in the next 3 years, you'll be 19 already. for some reason, lately, laging pumapasok sa isip ko na ang tanda ko na. its like, responsibilities are responsibility-ing. siguro stressed kana with school works, or other stuffs, or may ganap sa buhay mo, or idk tbh. i dont want to think or expect what ur life is going to be after i wrote this letter. kasi honestly, ive been done thinking about and worrying about my future. its like, why dont i just enjoy things while theyre here? so what if in the next months i would not be as close to my seatmates as i am today with them? so what if in the next year, me and the taps dont talk as often and meet as often as we just did last month? kasi, so what naman talaga diba? like just think about it this way, i never even expected them to enter my life as they did this year. yet it happened. i was worried i wouldnt make any friends back in 10th grade yet i did. i was worried with a lot of things that didnt matter because i lived in my present self. hindi ako nag worry ng nag worry as time goes by and i decreased the amount of times i worry kasi atp, may point pa ba? kung nagbabago ang buhay whether u worry or not, bakit ka pa mag woworry? last months lang iniisip ko na hindi na kami mag-gagala netong mga tao dito, pero eto, may set gala sa friday? nagsleepover this weekend lang? do u understand? like, ano naman kung habang binabasa mo toh, ur not friends with them anymore or not as close or something. atleast u were able to meet and experience them during this time and during my present. thats the beauty of life. kaya long story short, live a fruitful life living in the present. dont ponder too much about the past and dont worry about the future, kasi in the end we can only ever move forward whether its what we want or not. to the peeps in my life that i never expected to be in my life, i love u guys. so so much. gala soon :DD to my mapa, thank u for everything and thank u for the trust u endowed on me. i love u so so much :(( <3 to my sister, tangina u have a special mention pa. thank u for being my sis to my current pinag-iisipan, as of writing, iniisip ko pa rin kung dapat ko bang pigilan to tbh, pero idk. siguro pag binasa ko toh iisipin ni ate sarah malala kung sino tinutukoy ko hahahahahahaaahah and to the heavens and the universe, thank u for giving me my life. im lucky to have it as is. but i hope for improvements and ill make it work along with ur guidance. xoxoxoxoxxo