A letter from October 25th, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I am mad. I was mad. For I have given everything that I have for her but she only took it for granted. I always thought what we have is forever, but I was wrong. It pains me to think that she saw me as someone who’s hard to love. I have always been there for her when she needed me the most. But where was she when I was at my lowest? That the pain I felt made me beg my mom to just transfer me to other school and just disappear like a thin air. Everyone in the room believes her. Everyone thought I was the rude one, but I only did that because I was so drained. I distanced myself from her because I needed to focus on myself first. I treated her with so much love that I forgot that I needed that too, I did everything so that you wouldn’t think that I am a bad friend, even tho I know in myself that ignoring my own feelings just for anyone isn’t always the right thing to do. That every time I was with her pains me. It was so hard for me, but this is for the better. I needed time, we needed time. Maybe one day, some day we’ll find again the comfort we felt for each other back when the days aren’t bad as today.