The Future is Here

Dear FutureMe, I wonder if you even will remember you sent this. Seems impossible but you've forgotten more important things before in less time, so it's possible lol, and yet not lol eh? So you're 30, big deal, except for fuck's sake I hope you've gotten some things figured out, and fixed your teeth up and gotten healthier diet wise. Where are you living now? Sarah is asleep here on my bed in #4. We had sex after I rubbed her calves after I woke up crying from nightmares and she wasn't home yet. You are about to get your 2nd tooth pulled next Monday. At least it will be over. There hasn't been any weed, you haven't slept well for almost 2 weeks now. You claimed to yourself at your birthday in L.A. that you were going to start making decisions and prepare for the rest of your life finally. I wish you luck, I ask the universe right now to help guide and protect those things you love. Where do you live now? Did you reconnect with anyone? Did you make any amends? Whatever happened with Nathaniel lol. I really want to destroy that guy, but it seems the universe has some plan for him since he isn't dead yet and almost did die from his tooth. I reallly fucking hate him. I hope you have learned some things that will really help you. Did you start any classes yet? I hope you started doing martial arts somewhere, anywhere, just to get started. Man, I do love you, makes me teary eyed right now to write it. I know it's hard, but I love you Matt, I'm not giving up on you, so don't give up on yourself. You know write from wrong, so start focusing on that and take care of yourself. Learn to fly, be free, and love. Thank you universe.