A letter from October 1st, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Oct 1 2023 you was l 1. A sinner 2. A lazy *** 3. Wants an appluad for every little accomplishment 4. A disappointment to the family 5. Not someone her siblings would look up to 6. A coward 6.1 fears failing/barely tries anything 6.2 scared people will know she is a loser 6.3 scared of going to a monastery 7. A terrible Friend 7.1 i get jealous 7.2 i think am kinda cruel to 7.3 not a very good listener 8. Short attention span 9. Care too much about people's opinion 10. Kinda indifferent 11. Not passionate about anything This is all i could think of right now. Bez it is okay you're all of this. it is okay if you are still like this. I know it's scary why would anyone like being like this but hun you don't have to like it. You just have to accept everything stop running away from it. And accept everything and pray pray a lot make that a habit and all will be okay. Your past self trying to love us