A letter from Sep 11, 2023

Dear FutureMe, heyyy, how are youuuu? i dont even know where to begin. i have the final exam of this summer in two days. i was supposed to study for it properly but physics dumped so much homework on us last minute that i've spent the last five days as a pile of nerves. i literally haven't been able to do anything just bc im so stressed about getting this assignment done. i don't even remember the five days passing. it feels like i've been in a trance, literally dissociated for a week bc of stress. i haven't studied all that i needed to study and i don't even know where the time went. it flashed by so quickly, now i have just two days speed run this assignment and maybe study a little math. im not get anything done honestly. but i wish that was my biggest problem, the vacation dad has planned overlaps with three school days. bc i'm free this last week of summer we had planned a vacation but the idiot booked it all a couple days late, so now ill miss three school days and im already so stressed about that i can feel my heart struggling to beat. i wanna scream until my lungs bleed that's how stressed i am. the fact that he booked the flight knowing that id miss school shows how little respect he has for me and my situation. the whole point of going the last week was that i wouldn't miss school. we could've as well went in the middle of summer, whats the differance. i cant contain my rage i need to beat someone up. someone has to pay for all the distress i've been caused. ive been saying for weeks that i wont come and they literally leave me on heard. they ghost me in real life and i've had a couple out lashes bc of this. they just wont listen they keep saying their own thing and im so angry rn istg. they are literally just a problem. always. and he has the audacity to ask me "but won't you miss us" OFC I WONT MISS THIS **** yall have absolutely no respect for my word why would i miss this. i aLREADY HAVE ENOUGH PROBLEMS I DON'T NEED THIS EXTRA BAGGAGE DUMPED ON ME RN I REALLY i really don't need the extra stress ********. i could rant about this for ******* hours but let's move on, why cant they just undrestend my situation nikrhgpwo8e'obuj;SDVefqhbpugi8epgipin9 gvbhrqipmhbjn jngv fcfhbgnv x JQADIKOLDXCIKJDXKJJJORHIKM J4RFT ANYWAY my poor keyboard i talked with ester for the first time in freaking years and i miss her a lot. talking about ester, she has AMAZING parents im so jealous im gonna cry, why cant i have parents that love me unconditionally and resect me and my identity and my struggles and ugh. but it was great talking to ester again. i feel like out of everyone i've talked to she gets me the best. id say its nice talking to *** people again but i talk to *** people everyday and they just dont hit the same. its not *** people, its nice talking to alt people again. bc josef is also *** and he doesn't get it either. normies also make me mad as ****. basic ******* with their superiority complex. there's a reason we hate normies and its bc of how hateful they are. its bc you will get the coolest haircut that ur so excited about and normies will have the audacity to laugh at you with their basic haircut that EVERY OTHER ***** EVER also has. where's the spice? what you think ur basic *** hair is nice, well its not. its boring and ur just like everyone else. imagine being just like everyone else? i couldn't. freaking normies man this has been a very angry week from ur very angry friend saba