A letter from August 30th, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Idk how to start off my boyfriend I miss The old him so much he changed a lot and I know for a fact he talks to other girls and it hurts a lot to see him changing like that I love him with all my heart and I wish him the best no matter what I would do anything to see him happy but I don’t think he will do the same I literally left so many people that we’re talking bad about him just so I don’t hear them I ignored everyone for him I actually will never believe in love after him he will break my heart if I broke up with him but the way I see him changing even hurt me more then you think I cry every night praying for him to be with me but ig nothing ever last forever and I will always be there for him even if we break up I will never make him feel alone even tho he made me feel alone most of our time even tho he never gave me time and when I ask for his time for a bit he calls me clingy and when he needs something from me he comes and give me all his time until he gets what he wants I am so in love that I actually do it to make him love me more and I don’t want him to love any other girl I want him only for myself I love him I really do I just don’t know what to do anymore but I hope he still loves me the same ngl and when he loses me he will see how much I loved him and appreciated him with all my heart doesn’t he miss me I mean why would he , I am the last one he will think about sometimes I just say to myself why am I still with him but then the second he text I get so happy like omg he remembered me whenever I see a text from him I get so happy even when I’m sad ig he is my happiness I just wish he knew that I actually wish he can talk to me more even 2 minutes I will be over the moon if you could say I am way to clingy but I am just so in love I stop texting a lot so I don’t bother him I get jealous over the little things bc I don’t want to lose him at all trust me if I lost him I don’t think I will believe in love after him I just hope he will remember my birthday I wrote him a cute little paragraph for his birthday bc the last time I right him a big paragraph he did not read it so ig he will read this one I just can’t wait for his birthday but Ngl no matter what happens I will always miss the old him he used to text me first but now I have too ig he I losing feelings man what did I do for him to lose feelings I tried my best for him to be happy and I was trying to be the best gf anyone can ask for and I would even do whatever to see him happy I would never send him sad or mad to bed even if he was wrong I would still say sorry