A letter from Aug 14, 2023

Dear FutureMe, It's been a while since I've last wrote. I meant to write monthly, but I've been busy. It's been a wild year already and school hasn't even started. I'm now a Junior in high school and am talking to a guy. Not the one I had said in my other letter. This one is better; he is so sweet and kind. He cares so much for me and understands who I am. He likes me for me. He was one of my best friends before we started talking. I was hesitant to start anything with him because I didn't want to ruin anything with him. I didn't want to lose him, but now I am so happy I decided to start something. We are hanging out this Friday at our first football game for this season. Honestly IDK why I decided to write this, but I do want to remember this more than anything. He makes me feel as if I can always be myself. I have never felt like that with a guy before, but he knows me better than most of my friends do. I know so much more about him than I did when we were just friends. I know so much about his family, his friends, and what goes on in his mind. He knows the same about me too. He was my best friend for such a long time, so he knows me so well. I would never have imagined him being to one I would be talking to; he just isn't like the other guys I've previously liked/talked to.... and that is such a good thing! He is just so much better than them. I just wish, he would finally ask me to be his girlfriend. We've been talking since the beginning of June and this Friday will be our first "date." I'm so nervous but excited at the same time! What if it goes horribly wrong? what if I say something wrong? what if it's just awkward the whole time? what if he tries to kiss me?!?!?! Idk if I want that or not. I'm terrified. All I can do is hope and pray that it goes well. Wish me luck, I hope you guys are happy in the future. Love you.