A letter from Aug 07, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Uy hi dexie how are u? are u alive or something? hahahahaha if u dont remember this thing, this is ur kabuang last year cause yea sad gurl ka hahahahhaha tas ang music background ani kadtong naghimo ka ani nga letter is kung wala ka by hale HAHAHA jejemon right? pero karon if u dont remember im crying while making this letter kay yea im not fully healed sa past namo ni first love which is si bonane its been 5 months and im not really healed naay nag confess saimo pero u rejected him in a good way kase ur not fully healed and dont want to hurt him hahahahaha. tas ga entertain pajud kag lain kay abi nimo okay raka tan awa looy kaayo si charles og kurt ron hahahahahaha. lets start on how bonane treated me. he is so precious, caring, loving, understanding man. he was the best person who entered my life in that 4 months of talking i really felt his genuine and reliable feelings na he doesn't want to hurt me instead he want to really love me as how he sees me. The time nga im really on the lowest part of my life u asked me if im really okay then listening to my rants tapos calling me to check me if im really okay huhu that's when i knew u are THE ONE hihu. The way he treats me when nanglood ko or either grumpy ko he would always ask me what happen then apologizes many times even he knows na dili jud niya sala. diba nawa unsa ka genuine ang tao unya imo ra gi treat og basura hahahha ataya. The way he would ask many times nga okay ba ko? ok raba jud ko? okay ra akong day? he really healed myself kay i never got this treatment from my family nor my father nor someone else hahahaha so thats why its really hard to forget him tapos first love pajud hahahahahha wtf. hes really special idk where to start basta kay grabe sya, grabe ang pag treat niya, pag ka loving and caring tas supportive unya protective unya one time nag away mi kay tungod lage sa pag barkada nila hazel hahahha pero i understand him naman ato nga he's worried for me na maka parehas sailaha pero ang sakit lng ato kay iyang gi kampihan iyahang classmates HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA even tho dili namo sala ilaha jud sala he chose to kampi his classmates without even questioning or knowing what really happened. tas he thinks na ing ana ko because of lags sila hazel i get it naman. hays ang miscommunication jud oy lisod kaayo HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA yea they're my friends but i dont do what they do hahahahha this maybe bad but yeah they're are really good friends but yeah naa lng jud mga mali saila pareahs anang kunsitandor tas backstabbing mao na ako dili ganahan sa ilaha hahahhahaha pero anyways going back i just miss my first love. First love never really dies. Even if u try they will really have a small part of ur heart. He even treated me better than my dad. What went wrong? I have so many whats if everyday every night like. What if wala nako to naingon? What if wala to nahitabo? What if i treated him better? What if i was not toxic? What if nag listen pako saiya before? What if wala ko nag goodbye saiya? What if wala ko nag overthink? What if wala nalang ko nag detective conan? Would still be this day naay kami? Mag kami naba? Naay something paba gyapon saamoa? dili ba mi ma awkward? would he ask me to officially court me? Hahahahahahah many thoughts every night thinking what if hadn't lose you? wtf man jud ning mga tiktok oy pero what if jud ba? hahahahhaha every night nalang ko mag ing ani? mag cry until kapoyan na. Ngano mani oy😭 sakit na kaayo sakit kaayo sakit pas sakit. Sakit na kaayo sa akong buot nga permi mag cry because of you. Permi nalang hubag akong mata. Dili nako gagawas sa bedroom dili na magkaon hahahha wtf. Nawala man gale ko sa honors tungod sa akong paghilak² (im not saying its ur fault tho) ik its my fault hahahahha. the moment nga i just want to hug and cry in ur arms. why did u let me feel this way? Dili na ikaw akong naila nga si enan☹️ pero yea its understandable kay ik its my fault hahahhaha. i want to hug you and cry in ur arms. I just want to thank you for healing me when no one really can. i want to thank u for dealing with me. I wnat to thank you for treating me so good. I want to thank you for comforting me. Dont forget na i loved you(even karon) even the times na grumpy ko i felt ur genuine side so i really feel like I'm home. No one know what we went through but yea im happy for u! Thank u for letting me feel this way u will always have special part of my heart, But let me please forget you. Sakit na i always cry every single night... Thinking what we could've been. Please let me forget u pls pls. I dont want to forget you but for my own peace ill let the world forget you but if they cant i would still be waiting and hoping for u and us. Please if u still have anything left for me, please lets have a clear closure, it was very hard for me to have a sudden closure because of something small and that was so sudden that we didnt had the chance to talk with the things we loved, we cared, we hated, we admired, and the things that i always have on my mind everyday with the question of what went wrong? hahahahaha basta i love u This maybe jejemon for me and for him but Thank u for 4 months and 9 days, 129 days, 2 hours, 58 minutes and 53 seconds (i got this from SHES DATING A GANGSTER hahahahaha) Its just crazy nga ang random stranger like you would be my safe person, rant person, home and my FIRST LOVE. I didnt know that the person who healed me would be the person who would break my heart again. i love u and i miss u every night and day.