A letter from Aug 07, 2023

Dear Future me, Hello, So… me in the future, you are currently 23 years old, no children, 2 cats(beans + Nelly) in a flat working for the bank. I really hope things are better for you, I hope you overcame your anxiety with food, that you started driving and travelling to new places (big or small!) maybe you got an education? Lost weight?! I weigh 14.5st currently. Are you different now? Better? Worse? Do you have more friends? (Chelsea is my best friend currently) I’m trying to find joy in the smaller things at the moment. Like exercising, yoga, quality me time. You just got out of a pretty toxic relationship so this is healing you. You may have cut off all of your hair… :) You are only consuming hash browns, bread, butter, potatoes of any kind really, pancakes and burgers. PLEASE HAVE FIXED THAT BY NOW. Please be single or in a healthy relationship. I would hate future me if we have gone through all of this to end up in another unhappy relationship. How’s work going? Are you able to work? I know I might not be working right now. I got offered a shunt for my IIH a couple of weeks ago… scary. I really hope you’re healthy now. I BEG you are healthy now. Because just know past me has been begging for good health for a year now. You’re learning Russian… did you finish? Fluent? Or have you forgotten it. Привет = privet FYI I hope you are happy, learning new things, going new places, trying new foods. In a happy relationship ( possibly with children) or single and content with that. Did we ever have a baby? If we haven’t yet, I’m so sorry. Well, goodbye future me, take care of me, and if you find you healed yourself, remember you just healed the girl who is too scared to eat, to leave her bed, to do anything. So thank you. Bye bye