A letter from Aug 06, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hi aneissa I hope everything is better now :) but it’s me (you) from the past writing you because you just got a letter from your sophmore year self and decided to write another for in the future when your hopefully happy and doing better. Right now you currently have no friends lol your best friend would probably be Rozanna since she the only person who you feel like actually still likes you. It’s summer now and you just graduated and you’ve kinda cut off everyone like baby GURB and tere and that group but honestly coming from me they always make me feel left out and they just genuinely don’t care so I want better friends but I never thought it would be this hard to find a friend I’m used to having them easily but I don’t even talk to Carina anymore. And Jo who was my best friend, she’s back in my life now but we’re definitely not best friends anymore. I feel like I don’t even know how to have friends anymore. I’ve been high since last summer pretty much. I’ve taken breaks for a month or two but yea everyday is spent with penji pretty much. You don’t have zay anymore lol he’s married now supposedly and has a kid so if he’s living his best life now that y’all aren’t together. It’s been more than a year now and I really wish your past self never said they hoped everything changed because it all has but for the worst honestly. Nothings the same anymore , you don’t talk to your family , you don’t have friends , you don’t have zay. I’m fat now the fattest I’ve ever been so I really hope your skinny now and happy now. My life in general isn’t too bad. If you look at it on paper it would say, broke ups with long time toxic bf, got new “better” bf, made a new friend group (cut off old friends worse/ best decision idk cuz now your lonely but seeing everyone was kinda fake ), got out of cds ( if you forgot somehow it’s the school you went to for getting expelled aka when your life went horribly wrong lol), made it to regular highschool (workman which was the worst idea ever and the worst school I lost all contact all friends and had the absolute worst school year ever in my opinion and I used to really love school), graduated, got a job, going to college. And oh yea I forgot to mention you never see your brother anymore. Since the whole fight with mom I have a restraining order on her but honestly just gave them a real reason to js ditch me and they left to go buy a house, get married and somehow live happily ever after now. You are dating Emmanuel and if your dating him still I hope your happy … I hope your really happy and things changed hopefully cuz rn yea he’s a good bf I guess but like I don’t know . I love him but also not hate him but he’s just not my ideal person… idk that sounds ****** up because I do love him and he’s my only friend but also like I don’t feel like myself at all I don’t feel like I used to I’m not happy and active anymore I’m depressed and fat now and never satisfied with anything, living day by day sad rotting in my room until I have to go to work which I hate so much. Anyways your about to start college now and once you receive this just now I’m putting it into words right now how your future is going to turn out (hopefully). I hope your happy, wealthy wealthy, things worked out with Emmanuel (he changed), you still talk to Noah, you have really really good friends , your going great in school about to graduate :) , on your way to a high paying career. Okay anyways bye I love you I hope your doing really good please be doing really good