A letter from Aug 06, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Im sitting in bed right now listening to Decks Dark by Radihead. It's the last night of summer and i didnt do anything but sit in bed and watch fast and furious. Ive come to terms with just being alone and not going out tho, which im happy about. Ive been thinking about my future a lot lately. Im gonna be 18 next year which is crazy. I still feel like a kid. Ive been applying to colleges too. I cant believe im going to move out and be a whole adult next year. Im in love with someone named Yaya right now. U probably remember him, hes pretty much my first love. I wonder if we ever fixed things again. I hope so, i miss him a lot. Me and mom are really good right now, which im glad about because we didnt talk for a whole 8 months which is really hard to go through so young. Me and dad, and ronnie are good too. Its overall just going pretty good rn. I still feel like **** a lot tho. I wish i got diagnosed w something lol. School starts monday and im not super upset or nervous because i get out sooo early this year. Its barely gonna feel like school i bet. Anyways, when you get this you'll be 20. Happy Birthday. I hope that you have/ had an amazing day, you deserve it. Remember how much of a bad *** ***** you are. Dont let anyone walk over you. You are beautiful, you are worthy. I really hope your life is going the way I envisioned. If its not, just have faith. Good things will come. MOst of all remember to love yourself. Its the hardest love to give but its possible. -Ella from August 6, 2023 at 12:30 am