A letter from Aug 05, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hey girl, it’s your 19 year old self; you were kicked out by your mom and are homeless now, you still have ginger and Smokey. She kicked them out too, but you found us all a home. You signed up for a homeless program that helps you get your life together, and your foster moms are helping you through it. Mom doesn’t understand you or your emotions yet, and who knows if she will. She has a lot of things she needs to work on herself and maybe it’s better off we have some space from her. Life is difficult right now, hurts my heart but I have to keep going. I haven’t had much time to focus on myself here, I’ve been struggling a lot mentally lately. Do you remember that girl you met at pride, Kim, yeah well… it’s been a lot, I’ve been trying to understand how relationships works, and I don’t think she wants to be in one, even though I already have a love for this beautiful soul I’m not sure she has one for me. I hope your heart heals, I hope you get everything you’ve ever wanted, I hope you find someone who appreciates your beautiful body and your amazing face, your kind heart and funny personality. I hope you find someone who knows how to deal with your emotions and respects you when you are under the influence. I hope they protect you when you are scared or hurt. I hope you never hurt again. You’ve been through a lot of mental and physical and ****** abuse, I hope you heal from it and become the beautiful butterfly you were meant to be. Whatever you do, don’t ever hurt yourself or do anything stupid, live this ****** life and enjoy the good parts, you deserve to be LOVED! you deserve to live how you want, all you’ve ever wanted was what you wanted. So go do it, go do what you love. Just love, love yourself, love others that need it, but don’t drain yourself for others anymore. You need to learn that you can give love but sometimes it has a limit. People can take and take, but they take until there no more to, and they leave you empty and alone. No more of that. Now it’s you, it’s all you. I love you