A letter from Aug 05, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Smd n honestly js live yo life. By now you'll probably b 18 or something hopefully not dead lol. Idk if your better now or wtva but u have come a long way. Like u could've been dead, but your alive you made it. And if ur reading this idk like I feel so weird even thinking that someday u might get the chance to get this letter or email or wtv. Like are u alive? I don't want to die anymore, I'm not afraid if *****, but I don't want to willingly take my life away. Honestly I feel like life is meant to be taken away in the right timings, but not taken away by yourself. I'm honestly proud. Bc I hope u recovered, have a job. I have such huge expectations, and ik they may or may not be achieved, as long as ur trying n not living a ahitty life. I just turned 16 July 27. Its the year 2023 of August 5. Ik I shouldve put that in the beginning but idc. But I'm nervous for our future. Did we get into college? What are we doing? I never rlly thought about my future or I have but not in this way like knowing eventually I'll have to live in that timeline and I'll just be memories. I hope I rlly didn't fail myself.