A letter from Aug 05, 2023

Dear FutureMe, it’s a Saturday night on the 5th of August, it’s not too hot outside nor too cold, the weather is just right, you must remember that you were laying on you bed, i mean your old bed I hope since am expecting you to leave your country within the next 3 years, so I hope you did that you made new friends and that your maybe into a new relationship or at least into someone’s pretty with a good sense of humor that would match your energy like you always wished, you must definitely know that things are not so great right now, feeling a bit lost at the moment as always, i hope you got it all figured out, i believe in you though I never really said it before am really proud of what you achieved I am sure that you must’ve done a lot of amazing thing, i can’t wait to live all the beautiful and awful moments that you went through, i wonder how you’re feeling right now reading all of this, knowing you, you must be getting very emotional, but it’s okay to cry am sure from where you are now you don’t need to hide your tears anymore, i hope you didn’t forget all the beautiful things that you always cared about, the orphanage the animal shelter, creating your own manga, am sure your imagination is as vivid as it is for me right now, go easy on alcohol, and go easy on yourself too, don’t be too scared of having fun, i know you love feeling melancholic but try letting people around you make you happy a bit, if your single and a you feel like you loving a girl and you think that she might be feeling the same for you, don’t hesitate go for it you’ve got nothing lose,only maybe a great relationship who knows if you don’t try, and please take care of yourself, you must’ve done a lot for the others as you always did, so just in case don’t forget to give yourself some love, i hope you forgave yourself, because i still couldn’t find the strength to do it yet, but just know that, you did nothing wrong, you were just a kid and you didn’t deserve any of it, if you didn’t do it yet, please let go, you’re a great boy, and I love you more than I love myself now, i care for you so much even if you still doesn’t exist, exactly because you still doesn’t exist for me, but by the time you’re reading this message, I am long gone and became a memory like many others, and I just wanted to leave this message for you, for 3 years from now to me, the one and only raccoon that will always be, Sam and not Samy. ps: I hope you look jacked with some cool *** piercings and long dye hair and if not welp i hope this for the one coming after all :p