A letter from Aug 04, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Senior year starts in 6 days. I haven’t even started my common app essay but it’s okay I’m sure I’ll get to it eventually. Some crazy **** went down with Ryan and andres. Remember how I kissed Ryan in a pool fully clothed?? I cant even believe I did something like that. But anyways I ended things with Ryan because he was only after the hookup culture, and there’s a possibility me and andres might start talking which I don’t really know how to feel about yet. But that’s pretty much all that’s new on the love life front. This summer I’ve mainly just been working at the pro shop and hanging out with Zara or Connor. I think this has been the most fun summer I’ve had. Especially since my friends can drive now. I can drive too I got my license this summer but im still saving for a car. December of this year though hopefully I will have one. I wonder what car I’ll drive by the time I’m reading this letter. Will I have a new love interest. What college will I be going to? Is my intended major still international business? Did dad ever get married yet? I guess only time will tell. But as I’m reading this I just want to say as 17 year old Bella, to 20 year old Bella, I know I’m naive and I still have so much to learn about the world.. but I’m realizing slowly that whatever experience that happens to me will always just become a memory, whether good or bad I don’t know. But I don’t know when I’m gonna die and it’s occurred to me that I need to start LIVING now. So 17 year old Bella diagnosis- go outside, get off your phone, hang out with friends, go to the beach, text mami you love her, and just have fun. If there’s anything I want you to know it’s that your inner child (me) will always be with you. Don’t let society take your goofiness away. Hang around people who don’t steal your spark. Follow your dreams (you know what they are). If you want to make it happen, well then make it happen. You are so much more than I even know myself. I love you. I love me. I love us. Yours truly, Bella Bug