A letter from Aug 04, 2023

Dear FutureMe, the ,of i don't really know how to start this letter so im just gonna say what i am right now age:16 date: 10/7/2023 hour: 1:15 am hi me from the future (again) i know that by the time you are reading this you already know somewhat what it is and maybe also what to expect from it, since i sort of am still waiting for the letter i wrote myself last year. Or maybe you are just reading this to reminisce of the times i used to live in which may not seem great to me now but may seem kind of cool to you now (I'm hoping that by this other time you can actually say reminisce lol). matter fact i was thinking about this today. I actually miss the times I had in 2020 and late 2020, the music I used to listen to, the people I used to talk to, and especially just the euphoric atmosphere that whole era seemed to have. But when i actually thought more in-depth to it i realized how ******* dystopian or just straight-up ****** my life was in 2020 late 2020 (as everyone's life must have been around this era. I'm not going to go into details here but, i think we know what we are talking about. if another me from the future (one that is later than the one first time reader) is actually reading this because you miss what i had back here, look at what you have right now, im sure its not the same as what i had back here (2023) but at least its something new. you have something only you from your today will have and no one else, jeez now that im thinking about i envy it lol. either way if our situation is worse in the future i still want you to keep going, i know that we don't have many people in our life right now or maybe i do in the future idk if i got charming by the time you are reading this future-future me, but point being remember that you always have someone by your side, and thats me always have comfort that ill be there well now this letter is for the 18 year old me. how you feeling? legal? i hope you've already learned how to drive and at least had 1 girlfriend, but enough with expectation, we both know we don't hold up too well with those. How are you? Good? thats Good! im pretty sure you wouldn't feel like ******* yourself just yet like future-future me so im guessing you are expecting a very extensive letter from your 16yr self and tbh i think your eagerness was well deserved. if you are curious about my situation right now, i just got broken up with, im half naked *** sitting on my bed, and lastly im writing this letter to you. Im as authentic as you could as me i could be, im in the moment. Whatever i said here comes straight from me and part of what my heart is feeling with HiLo in the backround (jack stauber album) i suggest you read this letter with this album in the backround cause as always, music is everything in our life, if it isn't, get your **** together. so i don't really know into wthehat specifics you would like to get into in this letter but im just gonna tell you whats going in my mind right now, how am i going to do when im out there on my own with no one by me in a whole completely different world (United States). My mom and my sister currently left to the us for their yearly trip and im just feeling like that reality of me being alone is approaching me slowly but surely. I hate this feeling of being alone, not like in a relationship but alone as a whole, i know humans are supposed to be social creatures but every time im in a social place without anybody i know i just feel so lost, i feel like im lost in a maze and i lose my train of thought. I am afraid i will feel lost when i finally move out of my home to the united states. i hope that by the time you are reading this you already who am i joking 2 years is not enough to make us change. ok well ive changed the album im listening while making this letter so i might as well change the topic while im at it cause i know i could just go on forever on it and that would be boring for you. relationships ah yes. i think today marks the day of my first sort of breakup. to sort of refresh your mind, amber. My relationship lasted around a day and it ended right about right now she sort of ghosted me. she was an ******* so don't try too hard to remember her im hoping we got into a real relationship and not an online one or that you at least have the ability to talk to women jesus. im not gonna continue on relationships cause A: i don't wanna sound creepy and B: i just went through my first breakup god now that i realize its so darn hard to write for such an extensive amount of time, just to let you know the amount of time it has taken me to write this letter i would prob have to say ive spent around 30 minutes writing it, after that minute mark you could be expecting me to be lazier with everything overall. writing is hard yo! god i just know that 18 yr me would want more of 16 yr me so ima just continue even though i don't got any more of that inspiration juice going through my veins. nvm it ran out ima continue to write this tomorrow gn