A letter from Aug 01, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I’ve always felt ugly. I’m ashamed of how I look and appear to others. I just wish I could be beautiful. I hate my body, my smile, my personality and I even hate my life. I want to feel loved by other people, but I’ll NEVER be able to experience that because I’m not the best looking. I’ve felt so lonely for 3 years since covid. I hate life..I want to **** myself. Maybe then I’ll be happier. I know I won’t do it though because I’m a *****. I’m so ashamed to be me..I just wish I could be someone else. I’m so thankful God gave me a chance at life, but this isn’t for me. I’ll NEVER feel true happiness. I wish I looked like mirror me. She looks pretty, Camera me will always be ugly. No matter what I say to myself or others say to me I will ALWAYS feel this way. I hate myself so much I want to throw up looking in the mirror. My stomach twist and turns knowing this will always be the skin I live in. I’m not sure how to explain what I’m feeling , but I know it’s disgust. Disgust for the life I’m living. I’m only 15 years old, August 1st 2023. I have no friends and no love life. I hate it here. I just want to give up so bad…My life will always be ****. I hope I can love myself the next time I am reading this. I doubt it. Good luck to all who are feeling this way.