A letter from Jul 23, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I hope this letter finds you well. Well, if it does ever find you in the abyss of emails. Or if you can ever be able to find it, since you know, you may be dead. If you aren't dead and found this, please, do proceed~ Happy birthday, pal. Holy ****, adult life? We lived this FAR????? Hdhfhfdheh jk jk. But kiddings aside, this really is a huge milestone. We really lived to see another day. And I hope these days are going well for you. I hope your skincare journey is thriving! Acne's still a crap we have to fight here, but we are fighting. I hope you have the confidence now and your overall self esteem is good. I hope that we have finally found ourselves. Being your 13–year–old self has its perks. I'm more poetic compared to people around me, I used to think I was special for it and tbh I still do kinda now, I hope you have learned if thats good or bad or what haha! Are you still the geek I am? Musicals, Books, and such. My favorite musical is Hamilton, we're seeing it at October 24! HDGGD I'M STILL SO HAPPY WE'RE GONNA SEE IT ANDD IT STARRING RACHELLE ANN GO. I hope the show went good for u <33. Have you found your love? Over here, we're still sticking with Jeremy Jordan and our fictional crush-comfort -character which is Freckles/Goggles aka Varian from TTS. I hope you still remember our alchemy boy, cause I'm writing this as I just finished yesterday a very long book like fanfic of a continuation of his adventure with our bud Hugo. You should reread it! Varian's tangled trials is the name. Its on Ao3 by Justinetime. Thats an order from your commander, you won't regret it son ;) Okay, back to point, have you found your love....? As in, its not some guy, or girl, you liked again cause they randomly flirted with you or gave you the bare minimum. Gosh! I have theee tea for you. We just rejected Lobster (code name for him) a week ago. Can you believe it!? We finally ended things for him. It pestered our past self so much forcing ourself to interact with him and finally we gathered the courage to reject him at last. I hope he found his peace now, cause dude really said we're the last girl she'll love. Edgy. We had a unique taste with boys back then. A bad taste. Cause we instantly like people without a thought just cause they carried their bag for you and rushed into things when you weren't even sure. Enough of boys..what about...girls? Honey Peach (code name) has us questioning what we truly want. To remind you, honey peach is the girl who loved you and at the very last day of 8th grade created a book on some of our interactions w/ her, how she felt then, and how she wanted to express she loved us. Not just that, she gave us a drawing of ourself! And a love letter! And a crocheted pink tulip. Holy ****??? They're serious. I wonder really how far this seriousness can go. Will we join her in the seriousness? I'm scared haha. What if I don't and I regret it, and what if I do and things don't work out or I rush into things when I'm still not sure about my *********? Everything is still an unknown and that bothers me. I accept that life is supposed to be that way but Jesus Christ I wish there was a hint button or a cheat code. We've been thinking about her these past few days and everything is just so confusing. I hope that you're not confused now and I hope you left High School with good memories. And today, I hope, if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, you truly like them or even love them and that they genuinely feel the same way. Okay, enough about love life lol. You're 18 already, so you're about to go to College. I wonder what track you took. Did we take HUMSS like we planned all our school life or did we take another turn? I really can't see us going for another track, but nothentheless, I hope you chose the track that resonates with you. Speaking of resonating with one's self, are you still the indecisive lad I am today? My indecisiveness is one of my biggest weakness so I hope you don't struggle with that much anymore! Remember, be firm on your morals and stand up for what's right. Today, I am missing our innocent people pleaser self that everyone liked. Although I have accepted that not everyone can like us and we shouldn't be such a pushover, I feel like we had our life handled back then. I wonder how we handle our life now. Stress, anger, crying? Probably. Still, I wont judge you, its a coping mechanism we grew up with. After all, no one can really really understand you except *past* self! All these feelings will pass soon and I hope that your present now can be filled with good feelings and awesome memories. Speaking of awesome memories, which college course you picking to make more of them? Psychology? Law? Both? Education, majoring in english? Writing? Journalism? We're eyeing on psychology at the moment. And Law maybe after. Well, whatever course you take, whatever path we choose, as long we know that it's our calling, I am assured that we can live our life happy. I hope you've become more passionate. Currently, I'm on a slippery slope, and I feel not to passionately anymore. I hope you get the passion I had when we were younger back. Its what keeps us thriving and determined. Whatever happens and whatever memories we made and whatever we choose in life, just remember to always choose you. Don't listen to what others say na ah, choose yourself. This is your life. We don't wanna die miserable and didn't do what we wanted to, we wanna die a rich tita with a personal library and elegant dresses living a life where we want to wake up to try tomorrow's breakfast. Where we want to wake up the next day to see tomorrow's sunset. Where we want to wake up the next day to see our family, or actually start the book we've put on our TBR for so long, or have a vacation and feel the soft ocean waves at night as we think and ponder about our life. And as that vacation comes, I hope that when we do ponder about our life, I hope we ponder on our good memories and how everything led to an awesome conclusion. As you officially become an adult, life is just starting. Today is still a warm up. Whatever happens, goodluck, adult self. I hope you live your life happy. It doesn't matter if we're not super rich or taking our dreams in a slow pace. As long as we're happy. Happy 18th birthday. Lots of love Sincerely, me P.S I hope you got the reference in the first and last line 🤸🏻‍♀️