A letter from Jul 21, 2023

Hey there, It's me from 2023, 2 weeks after J broke up with us. I've been dealing with a lot on the mental side, accepting reality, sifting through regrets, finding a way forward. For the first time in forever, focusing only on me and what I want to do. Which is hard, and scary. When you're alone, the question of what to do is as open ended as it can possibly be. When you're with someone, the field of options narrows pretty significantly. There's a lot of comfort and safety in that. Now that's all gone. I'm nowhere near figuring out what I want to do, but I know I will eventually. Hopefully you're a lot closer to finding that purpose, or maybe you found it already. Hopefully you put in the conscious effort to think, openly, every day, and you let that reflection drive you to take real action. Hopefully this led you to meet and befriend new people, and to have new enriching experiences. If I know myself well enough, you've done all of this and more.