A letter from Jul 15, 2023

Dear FutureMe, it’s summer 2023! I haven’t really been doing anything I did go to Mexico though which was so fun and amazing I’m really nervous for highschool I lost some friends and haven’t been keeping in touch with my only real friend hailey so I don’t know what to expect on the first day like where im gonna sit at lunch with who im gonna talk to in class and im especially scared of the dances because I bet I will have nobody to go with anyway my anxiety level is through the roof but I haven’t been letting that bring me down or at least I’m trying I sometimes get lost in my own thoughts and I get sad but then I think about all the things I have to look forward to like olis birthday party, Michigans adventures, and camping but thing I’m most excited for is my quince I know there’s still plenty of time left before then but I’m just really excited but sometimes I think if it’s even worth having one considering my family is falling apart little by little my mom doesn’t talk to my uncle anymore. There is something going on with my moms dad but she won’t tell me until I’m “old enough” but I do know for a fact it’s something serous because she went to Chicago a couple times with my aunt and Grandma I’ve seen her cry a couple times to and I haven’t seen some of my favorite cousins in months because of this childish fight my close family are having with the silvas and it’s all over a dog bite like come on grow up even the kids know better anyway I hope life is way better than now I hope your not as broken and lost as me I sometimes try to think about how I have such a wonderful life compared to others but the feelings are to strong and sometimes I just have to get it all out but I can’t because my family doesn’t know what I’m going through I don’t even know my self maybe it’s my fear of highschool or that fact that my family is falling apart or maybe it’s that fact that I miss simple times where I would play with my cousins all day long without a care in world and my family was happy but all of this doesn’t really matter because by the time your reading this the fear of highschool would have already passed the sadness of my family’s relationship has finally passed and now it’s just memories of me laughing, dancing, playing and just being happy anyway enough with all this sadness I hope that your life is going better than right now bye future Laney I wish you all the best and I hope your fear, stress, anxiety and over all life problems are fixed and you better be putting positivity into this world because right now that’s all you really need ❤️