A letter from Jul 13, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I'm a sensitive person. when I was a kid a lot of thing would get to me. I struggled with depression and social anxiety. I still struggle with it on a day to day basis. I have a lot of trauma in my past, but what really sparked the anger, confusion, motivation, and confidence, was what me used to be family did to me. Around the time covid started my dad caught is he was splaced in a coma for weeks well he ended up getting better June of 2021, and went home for a few weeks. in august he went back because he developed an infection and he stopped breathing for 10 minutes and was declared brain dead. I had to pull the plug on life support. I year and a half later and my so called family went and buried him without me. I've never ben so hurt by the people that called them selves my family. Then that same day my aunt started drama on facebook saying that i was to sensitive and that all this was for attention and that my mom handed me everything in my life that it would do me good for people to treat me this way because it would teach me some responsibility. so instead of falling into a pit of depression and sulking, or giving into my anger and hurting myself or others, I'm gonna be the bigger person, and show them that I don't need them to be the best me there is. I hope to be an EMT one day and I will be the best EMT there is just so I can rub it in there face and show them I can do it all on my own. I will tell myself to keep going to continue to push and to not care what people think about me because everything I have been through has only made me stronger. I'm so proud of the amazing mother and woman I have become. The sensitive side of me will make me a better EMT, and It makes me a caring and kind person. I'm gonna take all these emotions and put it towards getting my GED, and when I walk that stage I will wear all my confidence with pride as I show my kids all the hard work I accomplished by myself, and that you don't need anyone's input to the best you. I see my self in 5 years being ana amazing mother with a beautiful family that supports me. I am an EMT that has already helped so many people, that has saved so many lives. I will continue to strive for the best me and to reach all my goals in life. I will live a happy life with the family I choose.