A letter from Jul 12, 2023

Dear FutureMe, hey how are things going we recently adopted Spritzee and cut everyone off, when i say this the main thing i think is "i hope it stuck" LIKE i hope so badly that they didn't start controlling your life again. I talk about you like you're not me because it doesn't feel like you are, you know more than me and maybe you're less afraid than me. there was a good chunk of time where it didn't affect me or maybe i just didn't want it to affect me, I don't want to be hurt by them anymore, every memory i have is hurt every word they've ever said to me is hurt and I've been undermined for my entire life, i cant do it anymore, i so badly hope you still aren't talking to them but at the same time, I'm so afraid that, that's the case. i hope if you still haven't talked to them that you're at peace with the decision because even though, a month after ive blocked them, that its for the best but I'm still so afraid and ashamed... i don't know where you are or what you're up to but please. if you're still bored and wandering and lost please do something about it because i cant and if you cant either then nothing will ever change. i hope nothing else has broken your heart.