A letter from Jul 12, 2023

Dear FutureMe, hello, i was supposed to write this yesterday and i even almost forgot to do it today but here i am! its 1130 rn and i meant to write to you as soon as i got home but i forgot. I asked the school site manager to let me write it there and the ************ said "I can not allow sketchy business like that on school computers" i wanted to slap the **** out of her. then when i got home I wanted to sleep first bc I've lost so much sleep this week, so the letter had to wait for even longer and then genshin got in the way. i just remembered i wanted to do this today so here we are, I'm loosing sleep again. ill try to make this brief school started this week. yay! :| its actually been pretty alright so far, except for how i meant to study everyday after school and review the days work yet I've failed to do that all week, no surprises there. I've also meant to get some proper sleep all week and I've somehow ASLO failed at that. just today did i manage to steal a little sweet oblivion. I've also meant to write more. I've failed at that as well oh well, it is what it is. i feel like the work hasn't overloaded yet and that's why i feel like things are going so smoothly. once we get to rough parts where i have to recall last months work ill start panicking and feeling overwhelmed again. so far i don't hate things yet the teachers are chill. i haven't had a problem with them yet, which shouldn't feel like an achievement, but it does, considering last year i was in trouble from the get go. other than the skeleton looking girl, the others don't absolutely hate me yet. if i had to bet, id bet that at least three of our threshers are fruity. the geometry teacher dresses like a 14 year-old **** boy (i did the math hes at least 37 ) and hes so fed up with everything, he acts exactly like an annoyed emo teenager. i like him. hes cute. not the way he looks, he looks 50 lol. our chem teacher is the guy that'd show up to school with a Hawaii shirt and shorts if we lived in a decent country. hes so chill, he tells us we don't have to worry about his subject at all. his vibes soothe my nerves. hes walking anti anxiety medicine. hes ugly too tho lol. our calc teacher is a gremlin in disguise. the way he walks reminds me of that one ugly creature from lord of the rings i think, and he talks weird. idk if hes trying to be relatable or what, but my guy talks like hes trying so hard to sound cool or imitate teenagers lol. other than that i feel kinda bad for him. he mentioned how he was trying to slowly hit one k on insta, and i was like girl, plz. "slowly"? idk i feel bad, how pathetic do you have to be to be excited about that. if he barely has 1k followers i imagine his posts are not even hitting 20 likes. idk hes on my nerves. cringe af. our stats teacher is a terrible teacher but a cool guy. he recommended a script? book? idk, and he read a passage from it and it was very good, i approve. i want to read it. and he has a cool name! Ata. our physics teacher is the only woman stem subject teacher, and that's not good. i think. but shes great. i lover her. she gives me Aquarius vibes. and i just know shed be bi if she could freely express herself. she was last years teacher too and shes awesome. no complaints there. then we have the rest of the subjects; our Arabic teacher is stupid. shes actually a moron. our English teacher is the same as last year and omg i cant with this ***** again. i just hope this year will be less insufferable. side eye. our literature teacher is alright ig. shes a bit less fun than last years teacher but i think ill manage. i still haven't met the islam teacher. ive heard hes a guy and god help us himself. i think it might be the end of me. we have an extra subject as well and that teacher was absent this week. hopefully shes not as insufferable as last years extra teacher for the extra useless subject. our class has less students this year for some reason. sanam is no longer with us and im just sure she scored a prefect ace on her finals and shes currently on her way to study architecture in France. a year earlier than all of us. ugh that *****. good for her ig. or she might just be skipping the summer school and will be joining to torment us with her perfect test results once again this fall. there are other student that are gone for some reason and i don't really care. i don't know if a less crowded classroom is beneficial yet, but i have a feeling like it is. maybe. im going to try my best this last year and hopefully get the results i want (ik i wont no matter how hard i try bc i always bite off more than i can chew) or worst case scenario stay here for a couple more years. but if things go relatively right (which they wont), by the time you receive this, you've already done the hard part :) love saba, ur friendly neighborhood third year highschool student (since this Saturday) :) p.s. i crowned kazuha! he has two crowns now :) and josef is off on vacation in maraco so we dont talk and thats sad and my room is still messy as **** even worse than last week.