A letter from Jul 11, 2023

Dear FutureMe, HAHAHA omg hi!!🥹 how are u?? i guess by this time you already graduated (i hope so). It’s kinda boring so i’m writing for you know. I’m working night shift so i’m finding what to do right now. Hmmm soo it’s 1.53 a.m. now and i’m tryna stay awake. I’m gonna begin with naturprogram and i’m kinda excited but feeling excited make me feel like i don’t deserve to feel that way. 😩 like yk, i feel like i don’t deserve it bc everytime that i feel excited, i ended up getting disappointed 🤠 I don’t have any idea what to write😭😭 Oohh right i’m going to see taylor swift!!!! 17th of may😭😭 omg I feel so excited right now. I will begin with the program i like (i really hope i can do it, they’re saying it’s the hardest), meet new people!!, going to taylor’s concert with mom and alina!! and probably more exciting moments will come. 🥹 My stomach is sounding now… Hmm i hope you decided to go to university after this studenten🤗 girl it’s what we want right nowwww Anyways i hope you have enough confidence right now and i really hope u can speak or present in front without feeling empty 😭 OOOHHH I FORGOT you probably are good in swedish noww!! (i hope) yk that my swedish rn is kinda suck bc i prefer speaking english 🫣 but now that i’m working and they’re all speaking swedish so this is my chance ehehe. girl i hope u became tall i’m kinda hungry rn do u still eat subway with mom? you should with more jalapeño in it haha 😩😩😩 i really hope you will have the best time, with mom, friends and in school ofc 3 years!!! i hope you found friends HAHA i’m sleepy😓 but i can’t or should not, they’re paying me here duh.. tbh i should be thinking that you graduated after 3 years but i keep on doubting myself and i feel like i can’t or maybe i will fail most in my subjects. You know right know we’re thinking of university but for real i’m not even sure if i can graduate to this program but i hope you graduated hehe HAHAHA i’m trying to be thinking positive about you after 3 years but i think i’m just being fake. i mean there will be so much to happen and it can change your future anytime. so i think planning future makes me only feel alive or idk maybe tryna escape from reality or i just don’t want to grow older i don’t really know😔 HAHAHAHAH whatever anyways congrats if you graduated🤗 but if not idk maybe you find the new version of u and i think i’m proud of it🤠 Clueless and always doubting 18 yrs old, Karen🧟‍♀️ 🙄 omg no way you’re 21 now HAHAHA