A letter from Jul 11, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hello, Hi ako 'to si Jaidien, 13 na me mag 14 sa September 9, kamusta? Anong nangyari? Okay ka pa ba? Okay pa ba ang mama natin? Masaya ka ba? I-kwento mo nga sa akin kung ano na mga nangyari, sabihin mo, ipakita mo, sana kahit nahihirapan ka na, kakayanin mo pa rin, alam kong kaya mo pa eh, hindi pwedeng susuko ang jaidien na yan, ako naman dito masaya pero Hindi ganon kasaya, okay ka lang ba? if oo then good, i suppose you're having a good life na? Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? If hindi ka naman okay wag joke, then sana maging okay ka na, sana mahanap mo ang paraan para maging masaya, oo nga pala, remember Amer? It's 3 years ago since you saw him right or not? What happend between you two? As of right now July 11, 2023 it's bad, i miss Amer but idk if he misses me too and yeah i we said we moved on but yeah YOU DID NOT, you just had distractions but it's fine, i hope you don't remember him there anyways what's the date you saw this? What course did you take? New people you met?? New crush? What's your univ? As of right now, i was thinking for eac or plm but yeah i hope I've gotten better in future, been happy, honestly, I'm not even happy, yes kinikilig, laging naka-smile and may myday palagi sa fb, but still, what I'm going through right now is bad, it's like I'm drowning little by little, i need someone to hold onto but i don't want to hold on, i want to drown, i wasn't ready for someone, i don't wanna meet anybody, i just want peace, but ofc you'll get less what you desire and more that you deserve, i hope we overcame this in that future, i hope you have a good work, take care of our family, be nice to people, and don't even think about doing bad things just because our mother/father/brother died, do you think they'll be happy? NO. they want you to continue your life and be happy even without them, and i thought you don't cry much? Are you crying? HAHAHAHAHA DESERVED, ginawa natin 'tong letter kasi nga mag is alang tayo sa bahay, sana maging masaya ka diyan, and remember choice = consequences confidence = good decision & less regrets always be kind to yourself, don't die, dying means nothing, be yourself love yourself, i hope you're happy Jaidien Wynzeth Javier Eumague, I love you and Happy Birthday!!!