A letter from Jul 10, 2023

Dear Missy, I know you’re still not okay but I hope once you received this message, you’ll finally find peace in your heart. I’m tired of crying, overthinking and everything that caused me so much pain. Ayoko na pero marami pa ‘kong pangarap. Sana kayanin mo. I’m out of words now kasi may nag-trigger na naman. Magre-revise na nga sana ako but then nawala ako sa concentration. Nag-scroll na lang ako tapos nakita ko ‘tong future me sa tiktok so I decided to write for myself pero wala nga akong masabiiii. Missy, please guard your heart. A lot of people are saying na napaka-pure mo pero you can’t see it. You always blame yourself and sobrang sensitive mo. Sana after how many years, you learn how to stand-up for yourself. No one can help you kundi sarili mo lang. So please, stop seeking help na rin from others. And more importantly, take care of yourself. Kahit hindi man malayo narating mo ngayon while reading this, I hope fully-recovered ka na. Kahit ‘yon lang sana. Please, try ro bring back the old Missy. ‘Yung Missy na sobrang competitive, talented, mahilig mag-explore and always gives her best in everything that she does. Unlike ngayon na average na lang lagi ‘yung kaya. I hope you can bring it back someday. I have trust in you. I love you, self!!