A letter from Jul 10, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hi, baby girl! You're finally graduating! Nakakaproud ka always! Hindi ko alam yung dapat kong sabihin sa'yo, or what to start first thing through this message kasi hindi ko alam if yung problem ko ba as of the moment yung uunahin ko, yung hindrance, yung currently happening sa buhay ko, o yung message ko sa'yo from your 2023 version. Siguro unahin ko na lang yung ganap today. Hays. I'm sorry tamad me today pumasok to the point na nag-chat na si Ate Sandara kay Mama na isa ko pang absent, tatanggalin na nila ako sa work. I'm so sorry for being so lazy today na sumakit lang tiyan, umuwi agad. Alam mo ba, today na-realize kong hindi na dapat ako umabsent kasi merong kumare si Mama same sa work ko nagw-work tapos pareho lang kaming extra-extra roon, but then the work I'm currently in is prioritizing us students than those oldies na need talaga ng money at may responsibilidad. Na-realize ko ngayon na I should be thankful dapat na they're prioritizing us na kahit pang-ticket concert ko lang 'tong iniipon ko. I know I shouldn't be worrying and meddling with other people's life, but huy s'yempre may konsesiya rin ako 'no! Ngayon ayoko na umabsent at I will do my best to do my work at maging good example sa iba. Alam mo ba? Kapag nagiging unmotivated ako sa isang bagay iniisip ko lang kung ano yung purpose why I chose this path. Mainly for ENHYPEN! Lagi ko sinasabi sa sarili ko, "Kung hindi ka magw-work hard iiyak ka na naman sa next concert nila kasi team labas ka na naman!" Or "'Yan sige! Maging tamad ka para iyakan mo sarili kapag team labas ka!" The thing is, adulting is really hard more than you can imagine. Oh 'di ba, walang connect HHAAHAHAHHAH Tapos alam mo ever since what happened to Axi and I, naging priority ko na sarili more than anything else. Naging selfish ako, oo. But hey! I've been selfless the past 19 years, I guess enough na yun and be selfish right now where I no longer accept people in my life na hindi ako tutulungan mag-grow at wala akong benefits na makukuha. I guess this is the right time to be better for myself. Next, yung message ko naman to my 2026 self. Alam ko graduating ka na and I know you're thinking of what path to choose. Pero I want you to remember this. Choose what makes you more happy. Not yung things that make you happy lang, but things that make you happier. Why? Hindi porket masaya ka lang sa isang bagay, forever mo yun mae-experience. Tingnan mo, tourism makes you happy, pero what course makes you happier ba? Hindi ba, reading people? Hindi ba, diving deep in someone's mind? Hindi ba Psychology? Pre-law? Ipaglaban yung tama? Be the voice of the voiceless? Lawyer! Doon ka sa kung saan ka mas masaya. Doon ka sa kung saan, you able to ace your profession kasi you're happier doing it. Doon ka sa pinakagusto mo. Okay ganito, I know hmm, inevitable things happen. Kunwari you're in the verge of "Hala law school needs money pala talaga?", "Should I apply to UP and take Psychology muna and then do part-time so that makaipon ako for Law School?", "Should I apply ba muna to airlines since I have the experience since I'm tourism graduate?". If ever man you're in a dilemma like this, remember huwag mataranta and take baby steps as you can. Kung balak mo mag-apply muna as Flight Attendant or Airline crew, go! Walang pipigil sa'yo. Wala kang dapat ikatakot. Go lang nang go! Remember the "It's grabbing the oppurtunity or losing the chance" okay? Alam ko you've been through a lot the past years since college started. Pero gusto ko, as you graduate, remember there's one letter from your younger self na pinupush kang gawin yung bagay na gusto mo. May taong naniniwala sa'yong kaya mo. Na kahit gaano kahirap, you have to aim for the best for you. Always remember the purpose okay? Wala man latin, ano naman? You're improving baby girl! Alam mo bang natapos mo ang 1st year with a GWA of 1.64? That's incredibly awesome na kaya. Saka ano naman kung wala kang latin? Ano naman kung lintek yung Sir JM na yun at binigyan ka ng 2.75. Tangina niya! Forever mo siyang kagalitan hanggang kamatayan niya kasi he deserve the hate dahil (1) BBM siya, (2) Groomer siya, (3) Kadiri siya, (4) Mababa siya magbigay ng grade. Wala ka dapat pinagsisisihan sa ginawa mo kasi all you did was do your best. Yun na yun! And do better! I love you tinatawag na me ni Papa may inuutos gagi HAHAHAHAH Anyway, may 2.3k na ako sa gcash ko for en- concert, kaya whatever happens, please do waste it for en- concert only. Kaya mo 'yan I love you.