A letter from July 3, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Obivously in 3 years everything about you has changed, maybe not everything-but things. Today was rough for no exact reason i just miss people, i’ve been thinking a lot about how i’ve messed up on so many different occasions big or little. i say “today was rough” when i should say it’s been rough instead, it’s just one thing after another, i look back on my mistakes and i regret them so much, especially if they result in hurting people i love mostly, or even if i have no love for them anymore. i feel like i’ve came outta my little summer shell more this year then last, i’ve been having people over and going out way more. it’s better but not good? i feel better mentally, i just hope i won’t be as depressed in the future, that sounds so ridiculous and like “🥺” but i just want to feel better☠️☠️, i wonder who’s still my friends or if i lost anymore people, did some people that walked out of ur life come back? loadddsssss of questions but wtv. i still miss yk, it’s so stupid because anytime i type out “i miss” the auto after is that name like wtf😭 we’re cool apparently but idk. i hope we got a new phone finally too, random but i was just thinking abt my future, school starts in abt a month and i still have like a school burn out which doesn’t make any sense, i wonder if ur still dating daniel, he’s a good boy i hope i don’t break his heart like i did. to eman😭 anyway i’m lowkey bored of typing ts so that’s all rn. July 3rd, 2023 4:56 am