A letter from Jul 01, 2023

"Nothing matters. Someone is always going to think negatively of us and that's why the way we dress or the way we sing or the way we paint and dance and express doesn't mean ****-all as long as it makes YOU feel amazing. Opinions are unescapable. Enjoy the the time you have here." -Doja Cat Don't know why I thought of making this. I saw this quote tweeted by Doja and it helped me realize how little time left I have of being a teenager, and I've spent most of that time worrying what others think of me. But I hope you stopped doing that. I hope you were able to wear what you wanted and act your true self in front of people that judged you since you were in kindergarten. I hope that every time you looked in the mirror, you stopped being repulsed by what you saw and instead saw beauty. I hope you were able to go to that Doja Cat concert and enjoy yourself. I hope you were able to get into ceramics class and find a new hobby that you will do in years to come. I hope you have filled your bedroom walls with so many pieces of your art that it feels like it drowns you. I hope you were able to become confident in your *********. I hope that you have experienced pure, real love from someone who wanted you for you. I hope that if you drifted apart from with that someone, you have healed the wounds that were left behind. I hope you healed your mind, but did not "fix" it, because it didn't need to be. I hope that as you read this, you have graduated or almost graduated and is getting ready for your new life at college. I hope that all the things you were waiting for - The Last of Us Part 3, a new Horizon game, Arcane season 2, Avah going to a convention to meet Misha Collins, the garden in your front yard to be full of the flowers you've been taking care of for months, getting that new laptop - have all arrived and they made you feel joy that you rarely experience, but you hope to feel more of. I hope you are living your life the way you want to live it, because I'm not able to. Please take care of yourself, keep your chin high, and I love you. I love you so much, no matter how deep I have to go inside myself to find that love, I love you. You are going to do great things, for yourself and others. Love, me.