A letter from Jun 28, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Right now I know your scared and everything seems to be falling apart but I want to remind you that whatever the outcome may be, you did try and I seen you. Everyday you were presented with choices and it's difficult Cheyenne! It's very difficult to be face to face with the beast and be able to say "no, not today." It's hard to live with the beast and say, "stay out of my room." I get it. Everybody does but the difference between me and everybody else is I will not judge you. I mean yeah sometimes I do get really frustrated with you but I know it's hard, so therefore, I will never judge you. I will never leave you alone and I will always love you. Even if your 80 lbs lying in a ditch again.. I will love you. I will grab your hand, give you a sandwich, and I will love you. That's the thing out here.. all we have is each other. I mean **** look, some of us don't even have our own children! And I also want you to remember that they are not suffering because of you, they are suffering because of what this world likes to call "higher than", "the law", or "because it's right." You and I already know our argument on that. Someone's life is not to be taken into the hands of another human by no means when it comes to the truth. Your circumstances are unfair and you hardly ever cry about it.. I don't know whether that is strength or a bomb waiting to blow but you complain none. You still do what you can and I know you miss them.. they are your world and they miss you too. I get you, I feel you, and I feel for you Cheyenne. This lifetime is clearly out of our control and that's ok.. it hurts and from that hurt we will take what we can until we can't anymore. Remember the birds and how they sing. Remember the trees and how they dance in the wind. Remember why. But most of all, remember I love you ok? Love, Shy.