A letter from Jun 26, 2023

Dear FutureMe, You moved to London 6 months ago and you have fallen in love with it. I always knew I would, it honestly just felt right. I feel like I'm at university again, my friends live a few tube stops away and I live with 2 amazing girls. I adore my job and I just think London is everything I wanted and more. Don't get me wrong, it can be overwhelming sometimes and I am recently single and you know what I'm like, I'm such a relationship person so I'm struggling with rejection at the moment. I'm currently dealing with someone who just can't see my worth. We went on a great date on Friday to a rooftop bar in Peckham but I just don't think I'm enough for him. I need to end things as I'm only going to get hurt, but why am I holding onto the fact that he might fall in love with me? It's been 4 months already so I doubt anything is going to change his mind. I need someone who adores the ground I walk on and makes me a priority. I broke up with AJ when I moved to London. I think I always knew I would. I have been slightly upset about him recently as I know he loved me so much and I guess I feel like no one else can love me at the moment. I feel guilty for ending it too as I know he thought we would be forever. I miss Cornwall so much and I do miss him and I wish him all the best in whatever he is doing. When I read this I'll be 27, nearly 28!! What the hell...life is going so quickly at the moment and I just need to soak it all up. My twenties seem like a blur which makes me so sad as they're so precious. I turn 25 in a few months and I honestly think I'll cry on my birthday. I still feel so young and slightly lost. I wonder if I'm still in London when I read this? I wonder what will have happened in these past 3 years? Will I still be at A.S Watson, will I still live in Balham? Will I still be getting myself in situationships? haha. The fact so much has happened in just 6 months of living in London. I'm sure there will have been so many laughs, heartbreaks and happiness. I hope you get everything you want in life Freya, you are such a kind soul and just want to be loved. Love 24 year old Freya x