A letter from Jun 26, 2023

Dear FutureMe, first of all, **** you. I hate this. I'm pretty sure I'm not in the best of moods to send this. and you're prolly too stupid to even remember that this had happened. but yes. you're writing this to urself from TSG, a place u used to work at. which I'm pretty sure u wont forget. ig. i think. idek where u r rn man. i hope I didn't **** up. i really hope. like I hope ur not in some dump in Bangladesh. dear god I hope not. even more importantly I really hope u didn't settle for some bengali girl :skull: (yes this stupid website doesn't have emojis :pepecry: ) I hope the relationship worked out well. knowing where I am now, I feel like I really need u by my side. but then again isn't that what we always do :p we grow older and feel like hey I wish I was there with my younger self to give him more reassurance, that life is, ok. it gets better, it gets worse. i really hope mom isn't disappointed at me. ofc that depends on how much we tell her. I'm not even sure the friends we made are gonna stay along the line. i know u prolly don't care at all if u already have a very good job, but, I am really sad. i just ****** up the drop in centre job application thing. ofc no one else ever gets it but we get it, don't we? the feeling of letting the young "us" down. our dreams and aspirations. i really hope u don't let me down. lmao look at me being like our parents having overly high expectations on each other 💀 oh wait nvm this website does support emojis lmao 💀. a lotta things in this letter I'm saying expecting ur going thru happy times and maybe this is me kinda seeking your help. but, its kinda unfair of me too ig. tbh I really hope ur happy. even when ur sad, feeling distraught. don't be too sad. a lotta people love you. (not sure of the future so I'm not gonna name any names cuz what if u hate them or vice versa in the future that'd be hilarious 💀). if ur ever feeling lonely, u know ur the best at making random people ur friends. never forget, you are THE STORM THAT ISSSSS APPROAAAAACHINGGGGG. we've been thru so much yet we stood back up like warriors. getting beaten to *****, ******** assaulted, backstabbed by friends, nothing has stopped us. rn I am bit sad that I'm not doing great academically (my WAM is going down faster than the deepsea tourism submarine (its a meme about some rich dudes going on a titanic expedition and dying, pretty morbid if u think about it.) and ur failing to live up to ur own expectations of being the tutor u wanna become. come to think of it, whenever I think about whats gonna happen after I get that job, it just feels empty. which begs the question of why I'm even doing this in the first place. ) my job is starting to become more and more tedious. everyday I hate my family even more and their traditional ways of doing things. everytime they say smth I just feel so,..... distant. but rn, I feel like, im nothing. so this is me expecting you to be something. or maybe you're not something. you don't have to be something. ofc we might not have fulfilled ALL of our 2010s younger selfs dreams, but, I just wanna say, I am proud of u. wherever u r. im proud of the person your gonna become. not because of the things u did. but because u survived long enough. and im sure you've tried. obv we both know a lotta the times we didn't try as much. but, hey, we tried right? currently u hate a lotta people that r around u. so u curl urself up into a ball. u use work as an excuse and OMG UR GF JUST TEXTED U AAAAA. but u don't feel like replying to her because. well... u feel like its her fault ur not doing great and achieving great things. well grow up dickhead its not her fault. u r a piece of **** who likes to put the blame in others cuz u believe ur system is foolproof from everything. haha news flash its not. u make mistakes. why am I arguing with myself 💀 shes the one who makes u smile in this godforsaken lonely place. ohhh and remember that thing we learn from suits? "if you're ever angry at someone, think about what your life would be like without them." rn. my life feels very.... veryyyyy empty without. u better not have given up on her bro. anywhooo. this was....smth I hope u got a job at a place where u think will bring u peace...... or ORRRR (high expectations incoming) what if, ur actually following ur dreams :0 making artistic stuff and not doing a 9 to 5 what if u moved to another place where u actually followed ur dreams. now that would make me drop my jaw. frfr. whatever it is. don't forget there r 3 people u consider closest in this world NEVER FORGET kyodai ur sister ur gf it never matters what others say, as long as they r by your side. you're the strongest there is. nothing can stop us now buddy B ) U CANNOT **** MEEEE I AM OMEGAA also ffs pls finish ur game back catalog 😭😭😭 bro u be making so many DMC references without actually finishing the games man anywhooo I hope ur happy bro. Little you is always gonna be proud of u. no matter what.