A letter from Jun 13, 2023

Dear FutureMe, do u think that were pretty now and that we have reached the so called "pretty privilege"? did we achieve our dream bod? did we get boyfriends now? if so how many have we had and do u have one now or are we lonely???. if we are then were probs going to be lonely for the rest of our lives, disappointing smh. are we still bffs with trusha or do we have different one? do we mange to get RK feelings for us or are we still delulu? did we go to loughborough college and good grades in our gcse and do we know what we wanna be sorry for all the questions im just excited, but i should tell you a little about myself incase you've forgotten im currently 15 years old in the 14th of june 2023 tommorow is the last day of school for the yr 11s im going to hug s1 tmmrw cuz ill miss him by now he would be 19 years old and living his life in nyc are u still in touch with him and have u seen him during the time hes gone to nyc if so hows he doing probs ******* off at some girl and then dip righ after im doing yr 10 mocks rn i did french today and tmmrw is history which im suppose to be revisn ahahhah u probs know what i got or u have forgotten which is common for us either way im praying that w get goood grades for gcse but im not all bothered abt that now is ur relationship with mum now is dad good what abt dhyani by now she should be in yr8 and in cedar academy are u mad at us for not living my life how u wanted it to be but i am trying honest not rally after the yr 11s are gone along with jewel and nosering there will b no purpose tbh i just want someone to love me i guess i got lucky this year because i finally have a bff and i can do whatever i wanted but am i happy no absoulutely not by 2026 hopefully you know why i am not i just wish people could see me like how they see trusha shess so lucky and she doesnt even realise it i guess i just feel rrly lonely anyways enough with the depressing stuff are less attached to ur phone now cuxz im praying u are now uno an invidulator in the exam hall the old angry man he tripped over myrals cutches and it was the funnniest thing ever i was trying so hard not to laugh god im rrly gonna miss secondary but not getting up in the mornings and going to schl speaking of getting up what time do u normally get up now and are u more productive well hope u are cuz 10000 steps a day i better see that dream body i would be disappointed very disanointed im writing this with a bag of dry roasted peanuts which is probaly not a good way to start u might regret this later and im well aware i think thats it abt me yug is now in yr 11 wow times goes fast just seems like yesterday he was in yr 8 and and fitting into that tight blazer with his chubby adorable self hopefully he got reyrey to ask him out and hes has way beter friends ik hes gonna miss me like a lot hows my girl ****** and prachi doing gosh i cant believe were all gonna be adults with repsonsibilities wathcing the younger generation hat was once us if ur reading this invite them over for a sleepover in dadis house if you can do you rember going india this year that was a blast i miss it so much rn school is stressing me out i miss dadis house her swing the cows the beautifully decorated tiles her mansion, were going turkey in the summer holidays tell me how that goes, btw this is a quick reminder to sav up money to go back to turkey and get ****** lift please i beg im tired of these saggy *****.... yo are u still a v well no matter what happens to you i hope you are much happier now regardless what has happen to us in the past but once you realis there is absolutely no way to go back and change your ways the only thing u possibly could do is just learn ik its not easy and trust me everyone has been through rough times in their life and their is many more to come trust me but as long as your healthy and happy that's all that matters to me right now i hope you are well and if u think i deserve a slap rn then i probaly would not blame you p.s i hope no ones dead, even you x