A letter from Jun 11, 2023

Dear FutureMe, today is the day i found out at ‘i love you enough’ isn’t a bad thing. i have grown up my whole life thinking at ‘enough’ was like ‘alright’ as if said i a sad tone. my bf said ‘i love you enough’ and my face filled with tears. to help myself process this i went on tiktok to see if people had the same pain in 4 words. they do not so instead i started scrolling this girl was reading a future letter to herself. so here i am! but that’s not the only thing i did today. remember the boat gusto 3rd… i think. yeah we took it out. i attempted to drive it. did not go good as the steering was so bad. yeah my day went from being public enemy to handy helper to captain (in training) to the *****. yeah, i did the i love you to my bf and this time he asked me why? do i said coz when you and happy it’s nice. yeah it’s a 1/10000000 at he is happy or nice or lovely or all of the above. i’m broken. yeah i know. but helping others and getting told i’m ‘enough’ is a slap at younger me. they wouldn’t dare won’t to be associated with being ‘enough’ coz that’s what mum would saying when she was disappointed in you coz you will nicer be more coz you just skim the line of being less than and more than. you are that line coz more than getting praised and less than gets helped. well i don’t know my emotions when i next read this but know we should be more than enough coz we worked hard to other people standards but in our standards we and more than enough. so in 1046 days from now you will be able to say that’s why i ended the relationship. and at i have healed more. so in 333 words. i must say farewell!!!