A letter from June 11th, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hi Sophie, it’s June 11TH 2023, 12:09AM, not long ago German and we or I, stopped talking, the reason this time was because he felt uncomfortable with me since the first time after we stopped talking, and he also told me I made him feel miserable, it’s the same how Jeff felt, this whole time I’ve been trying to get loved by someone just to feel worth of something but maybe I didn’t realize that there’s something wrong with me. I don’t know what it is but there has to be. How could I ever make two people feel this way, how did I never not notice how annoying I could be towards both of them, I loved them. Yet it didn’t work out because of me.I just wish I could find someone that loved me like those people I see, the girls that get flowers for nothing and taken out on dates without asking, or to even be official with someone that loves and wants me back. Why can’t I ever get that? There must be something wrong with me. I don’t ever wanna get into something again if this is how I make people feel. I’m gonna stop being annoying and I’ll distance myself from anything that goes further romantically, I promise you Sophie. And I hope that now we have fixed what’s wrong beneath me.