A letter from June 8th, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Heyy!! Freshman year is finally over and im going to a new school for sophomore year! (lp) it’s crazy big and tons of junior highs are going into it, so I get to meet so many cool and fun people! I just confronted bre because she treats us like crap, and I feel so much better like a whole elephant got off of my chest and I can finally breathe. The only downside is that the reason she’s going to lp is because of me, and we have the same schedule. Exact same. I’m just excited to finally meet new friends because I’m sick of the ones I have now. It’s gonna be so much better. I’ve been practicing soccer with Dan to prepare for high school try outs in July. It’s been really good for me and I’ve learned so much. A girl, gianna, from my school is gonna start practicing with me and Dan too. She’s chill and hopefully we can become friends? I got my permit 3 months ago, and I’ve been driving everywhere. Im so excited to get my license, time is flying like crazy. I swear I was just in kindergarten playing tag with all of my friends in California, but here I am in Utah with little to no friends going into sophomore year. I’ve been watching The Summer I Turned Pretty and it’s seriously the best. Definitely watch it again when you see this. As well as she’s all that!! So what do I want to do with my life? Im gonna graduate high school and do a year of college in Hawaii (BYU-H) and then switch to Keiser University in Florida for the other 3 years. After I graduate college with a bachelors degree, I wanna go to med school at NYU and graduate there, and then work towards being a Radiologist! I plan on getting married and having 2-3 kids. I do want to live TSITP life but you know. I honestly just feel like I’m always sitting in my room wasting my teenage years while everybody is out having fun. I know it’s my fault, but it’s summer and there’s no way for me to make friends. I just want fun ones who like to do stupid stuff. Owen is currently still living at home and working as a salesman for Doug Smith. Drew is going into senior year and probably going on a mission after he graduates, which will be hard but you know. I’m going into sophomore year and all that. Auggie is going into 5th which is kinda weird. Kit is still in pre school, which I’ll be teaching her class because her pre school is at my high school. Grandma and grandpa are doing great. Nonnie and Papa are surviving, I want to get closer with them cause their time is coming soon and I feel guilty cause I’m not close enough. I love them. No boy drama!!! Yet… Jenna left on her mission to Mexico 3 months ago, and I really miss her. I’m going to be so old by the time she gets back and it’s so scary to think I’ll be 17 at that time. I feel like high school is just going by too fast. I’ve been dreaming of being 16 and a sophomore, but now that it’s creeping up, I’m honestly so scared. And before I know it I’ll be graduating. I just don’t want my brothers to leave, cause how do you just move out after 18 years. How do you move away from your sibling who are the only people who’ve stayed with you your entire childhood. It just seems like it’s all going to waste and it makes me so sad. I don’t want them to leave, but at the same time I do. We act like we hate each other but we really don’t, but it will be awkward when I cry when they leave. Cant wait to see what point my life is at by the time this is sent back to me :) We can do this! Love, me.